the life of me
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May 30, 2002
May 30, 2002
the year's almost over. a week from today will be the last
day of school. can you believe it's over already? man, i
can't. i wrote in russy's yearbook today. FOUR PAGES. lol.
i know... OH MAYNG! lol. :) i'm starting to sound like
lissa. :) hehehe. i read what deanne wrote in russy's
yearbook. i know... i shouldn't have. but it was right
there... and he would've told me about it anyways. it's
four pages too. but it says the same things over and over.
lol... 'i like you a lot' 'i'll miss you so much' 'thanks
for making me so happy' and a bunch of that kind of stuff.
if i could, i would've said 'russy, for the past two years
you've meant more to me than anyone else. i love you more
than words could ever fully express. and and i just want to
thank you for always being there for me no matter what.
i'll never be alone as long as i have you to dream about.
and even if i'm always only dreaming... i'll always be in
love with you.' something like that. i don't know, i
would've put more thought into it... but that would've been
the jest of it... the main point i'd try to get across. one
day i'll tell him. i'll tell him everything. how i'm in
love with him. how i need him. how much he hurt me. every
damn thing. but for right now, i'm just all talk. saying to
a computer screen what i wish i could say to him. *sigh*
but i somehow wonder if i'll ever get another chance.
another valentine's day... another opprotunity to be loved
by the one i love so much. who knows... who cares. i think
i'm the only one. :(