Opiate620

HiDInG IN ThE cORneR
2002-05-30 00:51:54 (UTC)

You better Bend Before I go, On the NExt traiN to MEXIco

I already wrote an entry earlier tonight but i just feel
like there is so much i need to get off my chest. ok i have
been dating this girl courtney for a month, she is a
freshmen and goes to my school. she is really cool and i
don't have any complaints except that sometimes i feel like
i'm being tossed around a little too much, not a bad thing
just something i have to get used to i guess. i really
wanted to see her this friday because i have a hockey game
on saturday and then i have to help my brother move from
Lancaster Ohio to Deleware Ohio. This is about an hour long
drive if you drive fast so basically i am tied up all day.
I guess she is going to her friends house on friday to
sleep over which is cool. I just want to spend every chance
we both get free with her becuase she is leaving soon to go
to florida for basically the whole summer. And then we are
taking some sort of break thing which is eating me up
inside i don't want to do it but i already said she could,
but i think she knows that i'm not happy with it because i
thought about it and i could find no reason to take a break
except for a chance to hook up with other guys and to have
no guilt after it and it seems like sometimes i put more
into this relationship than i'm getting out and it hurts me
that she want this break and the fact that she has so many
people down there that she hasn't seen in awhile i'm just
afraid she will find something down there that i can't live
up to or be better than and she will be disatisfied with me
when she comes back and it saddens me but thats a whole new
topic oh well i guess i should talk to her about it but
i'll probably just lay down and let people walk all over me
as usuall....


-Samuel

*Sorry for all the whining but deal with it this is my
diary and i write for me not you*




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