Ashez

Still Breathing
2002-05-28 03:41:57 (UTC)

i'm suffering

my eyes open as i realize i lived another day.
the sun is too damn bright.
so i pull the covers over my head.
right away your thought comes to mind.
go back to sleep, i say to myself.
it's impossible.
it's so hard just to sleep at night.
because of you...
you keep my mind racing.
burning with confusion.
you are so hard to love
but so easy to fall in love with over and over.
so wonderful to come back to.
so easy to push away.
i hate today already.
i wish it would rain so my tears could hide away.
go to sleep....
i don't want to think of calling you.
i don't want to try to find you.
i don't want you.
why do i always feel as though i need you?
your embrace to start my day?
your smile to make me feel good?
i want to lock myself in dreams.
but they'll only be of you
i'm suffering.
i'd rather suffocate.
i don't know what to do.
you don't know what to do.
love is too hard.
i wish my covers would swollow me.
so you could go on with yourself.
to find new & better love.
and i could fade away.




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