SunnyShay

New Love

Dear Journal,
Sorry i've been sort of neglecting you but i've been so
busy. I met a guy on May 5 and we started offically dating
on May 13. Isn't that great. At first I wasn't sure if I was
ready because of the whole David situation but he can't take
over my whole life right? Anyway school just ended for the
summer and i'm so happy I can cry!! I really really need
this mental break. I think it's important that I take care
of my emotional needs right now. Anyway lets talk about Josh
(No not that one) This guy is amazing, you don't even
understand, I can't even tell you how much I love him. I've
never ever felt like that though. How is it possible to love
someone with your whole heart and still love them more than
that? We have moved pretty fast and that was scary at first
but i'm doing ok with it now. I just want us to take the
relationship slow, I mean I don't want to rush an to
anything and then regret it later. Let me tell you though,
he makes me feel like... Like i'm worth it. Like i'm a
Princess. I really mean that, he's already bought me stuff
and he's just so sweet to me all the time. I'm really
self-concious(spelling) about my body but it's like he makes
me feel good about myself. That, "I Love you" Poem that I
wrote, I kind of rewrote it for him. Is it possible to love
someone as much as I love him after only a month? I was
doing all right with the nightmares and everything for a
while I mean I wasn't having any but now they are back. I
mean they are really back to, I don't know what i'm going to
do. I've been trying to see the therapist and keep them away
but it's really hard to just stop them from happening. The
other night Josh spent the nig