I'm a girl, not a band!!!
2002-05-24 22:56:03 (UTC)


I have a lot going on in my mind, and just haven't been
able to organize it to put it in here. I still haven't. So
I'm just gonna ramble and see what comes out. Good luck,
and I pity the 'foo who reads this! (I love Mr.T!)

Well, Chris has been acting odd lately. I don't know why.
He is so hard to read...I just don't know what he's
thinking. Not that I'm complaining, I like it alot. But
I'm wondering what's going on in his head. However, I have
learned that trying to get that boy to say something that
he doesn't want to is like trying to sew raindrops
together. And that is a skill I don't have. I wish I did
though, be that person for him that he could tell
everything to, and depend on, and lean on. He is
definately person for me. I love him with all my heart.
Yay Chris!!

In the Pete department, well, I haven't heard from him in
like a week. I will always be in love with him, but I have
given this alot of thought, ALOT, and it hurts me deeply
to say this, but I have to let him go. It's just not worth
my time and anguish. I do believe that there are numerous
true loves for everybody. There are just too many good and
wonderful people out there. It's just a matter of who
comes along when.

Saw Hope last night. Met her best friend Nikki, and she's
so sweet. Nikki and I have heard about each other for 4
years, and finally have met. She's so sweet, and a perfect
compliment to Hope. I'm glad she's not living alone. They
will have a good time.

I'm still jobless, and that sucks cause there are places
that I want to go this summer...DC and Boston. Grrr!! I
wonder how much a train ticket from DC to Boston is. That
might be cheaper and buy one way tickets for different
dates. We shall see.

I have a headache, and have been really horny for days.
Sorry guys, more info than you needed, but it's my diary
and I can say what I want to.

It's hot here and I'm all sweaty and I have a bad habit of
chewing on my bottom lip and now it's all chapped and odd.
I mean, you can't tell by looking at it, but I can feel

Went to the Crazy Buffet today. It wasn't as crazy as I
had hoped. But good chinese food and a very large sushi
bar with lots of selections. That was lovely! It was even
more lovely because I was taken to lunch by Ri's friend
John and he paid. Score!

I need to get out more. I have no life. I'm just a
lifeless shell. Mackenzie, I know you have questions for
me to answer, but I needed to get this one done and out of
my head before I can answer them. They are next on my TO-
DO list.

I need a massage, among other things. I got up early and
am tired. I tried to go back to sleep but everyone and
their mom called me!! I was so pissed!! Just as I was
about to drop off to sleep, the phone rang. It sucked.

Travis, Ri, and I are trying to think of a good practical
joke to play on TJ. Now, there are some rules that need to
be abided by. First: he is staying in Mariah's room, so we
don't want to do anything to mess up her room. We just
painted and redid everything, so no to that. Secondly, we
want something that won't mark him permanatly because he
has to look professional for his internship and his job
and I will not do anything to hinder that. Thirdly,
nothing too complicated (or gross) to clean up (such as
the saran wrap on the toilet seat. Just nasty. I take all
suggestions however!! I will give you full credit if we
use your idea. Put your thinking caps on.

I'm hungry. Ri is cooking dinner and it smells very good.
Yum. I should probably set the table, but it's five
minutes to seven (EST) and I'm hoping that Chris will come
home soon and I can talk to him. Yay for Chris again!!
He's the best!!

Okay, I've rambled on long enough. My brain is empty, I
have been cleansed.