justin

nothin left to say
2001-06-10 05:08:55 (UTC)

dear god, it hasn t been the..

dear god,
it hasn't been the best year ive had, in fact its been one
of the worst years of my life. and shit just keeps gettin
worse. well kinda. my social life is just about dead so
theres not much lower that i can go. u kinda get used 2 all
the neglect and shit after a few months of it. except when
certain (cough) people start talkin 2 u, sayin shit liek "i
miss u, we should chill" and when other certain pot heads
faggots try to sleep over my house just so they can go in
my woods and smoke up. i really dont care bout them anymore
cause all they've tried 2 do is use me. fuckin assholes. it
just gets tirin after a while. but i have like a resistance
2 that now kinda. whatever. my school shit was good this
year and i was like im smart and shit. and now schools over
so feelin lot better bout that. now on to baseball. my
baseball season is over. i tore my fuckin ACL playin
basketball in gym class (how retarted is that). i have to
get fuckin surgery on that next week. please let that go
well god, i need somethin 2 keep me occupied since my uh
friends have been so nice and shit to me since i changed
schools. let me be back 2 normal by next baseball season.
hopefully. what the hells gonna happen 2 me. i hate this. i
cant do nething right anymore. friends, sports, parents,
everythins just just..... BESETTING me. ha vocabulary. i
just need to really get back w/some people or something.
anything. send me a sign. any fuckin sign. tell me in a
dream, tell me when im awake, fuckin run me over w/a car
for all i care. i used 2 have like a purpose for my life.
somethin 2 help me get up in the mornin. somethin 2 look
forward 2, u know? well i dont got that no more. girls dont
look like a possibility, sports..well no sports, and tru
friends? i gave up on that too. everythin bad u put me thru
has been 4 the best lord, just, shit, i cant see NOTHIN
good comin out of this whole year. durin this whole fuckin
life ive been gettin screwed up the ass. its like one big
staind song. that just repeats over and over and over and
over again. damn how am i gonna deal w/this summer. no
sports, dont know what those peopole i used 2 call my
friends are thinking, and girls is tied in w/taht, and my
parents are fucking assholes, and umm well god help me. im
out yall. its been a long day. -justin




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