ultimateEMOgurl

So much for my happy ending...
2002-05-20 13:44:54 (UTC)

Finding loves..

Well it just occured to me how similar all your loves are.
I mean when you go lookin for sumone that you like they are
just like your past relationships. Cuz that is what you
look for and that is what you like. But with me i realli
dont know why i like people who dont keep their promises
and are to stupid to realize what they are doin. I mean yea
they can be sweet and nice at times but most of the time
the just frustrate me. I mean last night on the phone was
aiight. I mean i got to talk to cilla AND jeff. But the
thing the is a question to me is why did he call cilla at 7
when he said that he would call me...and he knew that i was
at home...cuz i told him earlier on the phone. That REALLI
boggles my mind. And another thing...jeff is turnin out
like adam...and that is the last thing that i want is to be
reminded of adam with jeff. He doesnt do what he says
anymore...hes not keepin his promises...everything that
adam was. I wont do that again. You know how many nights i
waited for adam when he said he was gonna call but never
did? O man too many...and i WILL NOT do that again with
jeff...heck no! If he keeps goin on the way he is goin he
is gonna drive me away. But you know hes not gonna change
cuz he is too stupid to realize what he is doin. You know i
dont mind if he doesnt call but you know dont tell me you
are gonna and then dont! AND ESPECIALLY DONT CALL MY BF
WHEN YOU SAY YOU ARE GONNA CALL ME!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH. Well
you know another thing...i dont know why it is that jeff
can get me so frustrated and then make me so happy. OO and
you know what he had the balls to say you know i love ya to
cilla on the phone. OMG hes such a retard!!!!
skdjfskl;ajfdkl;asdjflkasjdkl;fasjdfklasjd. You know i
realli dont understand my emotions. They tell me one thing
one time and another thing another time. It realli doesnt
make any sense to me whatsoever! I wish that things could
just be easy...and understandable. but thats life...and
life SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!




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