Jackster

The Life of Jack
2002-05-20 02:17:21 (UTC)

Is it REALLY over?

I hate to say this, but I'm seriously obsessed over Kira, I
guess if we actually went out it would be called "Love",
but since we don't it's simply obsession. She's in a deep
funk now because of all the seniors leaving and I'm
guessing there's more, but she won't tell me about it. That
part of my brain that is now entirely devoted to her is
saying bad things like, "She likes you and is hurt by the
fact that she is stopping herself from going out with you,
she'll eventually change her mind and go out with you."
Blah, I don't want to hear that from anyone bur Kira
herself, I either need to get her or get over her, and I'm
not going to get her, which leaves me one option; get over
her. It's not going to be east, but I think going to
college will help some, I'll just find somebody else who I
can become infatuated with and stalk, but then that same
part of my brain which I'm getting pissed off at frankly is
telling me that I'll end up hurting Kira, after all, LAST
time I tried to get over Kira, she asked for another
chance, then changed her mind again, but I've already
explained that. So anyways, I've basically consigned myself
to continuing with the obsession until I find somebody else
I like. There's going to be plenty of girls at UNCG, and
I'll be in the flute choir, that's like 30 right there, and
then me as the one guy in it, muahahahaha, I knew I played
flute for some reason or another. Anyways, I guess I'm just
venting again, and I'm over for now, anything else I type
would just repeat anyways. Ciao.

~Jack




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