OhBaby It Is Me

MY SO-CALLED LIFE
2002-05-20 00:10:37 (UTC)

Brian

I know that this should probally be before the last entry I
had but it's not, so you have to read it here. There is so
much that I need to tell you and I don't even know where to
start. Please bear with me. You know all about the way I
felt with all the stuff with Libby and all that past shit,
but there is so much more to that. When you left me, I
didn't know what to do. I was so lost and confused, so I
did a lot of internal growing and finally got to the point
where I am currently. And I feel that over that amount of
time, I've changed so much as a person. So much that you
have no idea who I am anymore, and something's that are the
same, you may have forgotten. I just feel like I can't be
myself around you and like I have to act like the person I
was with you around. I don't know if you can tell the
different ways I've changed and I don't even know if you
care, but I can't feel comfortable around you like it was,
without you telling me that you've noticed some of my
changes and that way I'll know that you still pay attention
to the little things and that you want to get to know me
like before so that our relationship can be like it was.
Does that make any sense at all or am I just selfish?