cowboykillersam

cowboy killer
2002-05-18 21:04:29 (UTC)

5-18-02 5:01pm

tonite only some quotes from a book. "A Grief
Observed" by C.S. Lewis. and a poem...by me.
"there is a sort of invisible blanket between the
world and me."
"part of every misery is, so to speak, the misery's
shadow or reflection: the fact that you don't merely suffer
but have to keep on thinking about the fact that you
suffer."
"he(christ) had found that the being he called father
was horribly and infinitely different from what he had
supposed. the trap, so long and carefully prepared and so
subtly baited, was at last sprung, on the cross. the vile
practical joke had succeeded."
A POEM
there i go-
hallucinating again.
sitting in this-
dumb-downed silence.
as they build their egos-
my nervous boredom turns to hatred.
conceded conversations-
stab into my brain.
and i just want to-
scratch the itch.

i have an "itchy trigger-finger" on my actions. i
also have a "hair-pin trigger" on my anger. this
combination tends to result in uncontrolled acts of
violence on my part. i'm impulsive. i'm apathetic. i
have a bad temper. i'm hurtful. i'm an asshole. i'm
insane. perhaps i should be locked up.
jokes are funny...especially when no ones laughing.
i'm definitely NOT laughing. looks like this joke's on
me. and i never saw it coming. these worthless, inbred,
pathetically stupid "townees"... i need to get the fuck
outta this place.




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