fuckd-up-69

My So Called Life
2002-05-18 12:04:16 (UTC)

oh. my. god

well......even i havent completly come 2 terms yet with
last nite. i never expected wot happend 2 happen in a
million years...but i am so glad it did. well i wont give
it away jus yet i think ill string u along abit! hehe.
after work experience walked 2 james house. no 1 else was
arriving till 6:00 so we got the party started by crackin
open a few cans of beer. i gave him his pressie...Maryln
Manson cd...not my type of music at all but he'd been sayin
he wanted it 4 a while. so anyways the others arrived,
minus lucy and plus carly. ah now that was bad. maggie got
there and goes to james "wot the fucks that stupid slag
doing here" they had a brief fight but carly came off worse
burst in2 tears and went home. james sed "o well she was
abit of a tart neway my friends r more important!"

as predicted serena and callum spent most of the night
being stupid and childish. within a few minutes of gettin
there rob and becky had bagged a bedroom and we neva saw
them agen till the mornin. poor sam was looking really
rough, he really has taken the break up with lucy badly.
i've never seen him that depressed, he actually cried and
for sam thats weird...he doesnt usually show his feelings.
dave arrived a few hours late, already totally stoned,
staggering in lurchin 4 maggie goin "honey, we is goin 2
get WASTED!" like he wasnt already! james dan and sam were
playin on the playstation then this is where the amazing
bit happens. i go to the toilet..and just as i open the
door daniel goes "i love u i havent been able to forget
about u its driving me insane", pushed me against the wall
and starts kissing me. i mean if it was ne1 else i wud just
think it was the alcohol talking but he neva drinks and i
didnt see him drink b4. so well...wot can i say...i woke up
next morning next 2 him! id thought i was dreaming
but....well i wasnt!

i was the first up, ive never really been one for gettin
up late. it was only about 8:30. i went downstairs and
fixed myself sum breakfast. lol in the living room sam dan
and james were asleep on the couch, with the playstaton
still on and lots of bottles around them. cute! then daniel
had obv woken up and came and sed "we need 2 talk" i
thought uh oh. this is the part where he tells me it was
all a mistake and we can still be friends. but no! that was
the part where he tells me he's going to finish with lucy,
i was the only one for him and he loves me more than ever.
suprising huh? i honestly cant belive it. im.....amazed!
estatic! happier than ive eva been in my life! apart from
one thing at the back of my mind.....lucy. o dear god how
did i ever get in this mess. shes going to kill me. daniel
sed not to worry about it and he would sort it out. he was
so sweet. he made me a cup of tea...exactly how i like it
and we cuddled up on the sofa and watched sum tv. haha must
hav been an unexpected sight for rob who came down next. he
goes "holy fuck wot the fuck r u 2 doing?!" half an hour
l8r they all knew. all except lucy. well, one of them will
tell her. me and sam got a shared taxi home 2gether (he
lives in the same village as me) he came over 4 abit, we
were meant to be doing a physics project together but it
was more a "gossip about last nite" project. o well physics
can wait. he really does love lucy, he talks about her
almost as much as i talk about daniel. thats true love for
ya.

so anyway now i guess i jus have to wait by the phone.
argggghhh its hell. lucys never gonna talk to me agen.

help!




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