loserbitch

some of my blisters now revealed
2002-05-17 16:36:43 (UTC)

life

life was the key word today.
parents, friends, school, teachers, bitches and bastards,
relatives. and people.
eyes as well. she found it funny when i said that i really
love bright eyes. what do you mean, like lighted. what
about people with teary eyes? is it due to lighting? tell
me, who has bright eyes. but she didnt understand. found
it really abstract, but it's not. that's all i need.
beautiful eyes. eyes that grab you, suck you in. eyes
that submerge you in streams of sorrow, puddles of pain.
that sing to you in times of joy.

do you dislike her? she's afraid of you. well, not really
afraid, but she feels that you sorta dislike her.

i'm tired, and i'm sick.
sick in the mind, heart and soul.
it is the same with the body.

i hate feeling this way. i need to breathe.
to relax. to be numb
numb and dumb

-leaf-
solve the plain
stall the pain
hit the floor
gain the pain
and you will learn
not to live
leave the beast
inside of me
we aren't one
yet we are the same
i need to be inside of me
but i can't see around me
i am waiting for this
need to let the blood leak
drain the pain away
i'll shut up
and i'll see
i was never one with me
disintegration
splinters fly
slivers of flesh
but the pulp remains
smoked out burned out
get out of me
i'm afraid
can't stop
learn to steal the hate
don't deseerve this
it's been wasted on me
let some unfortunate soul
have all that they shoud
turn the lights out
let it lie

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i'm not like them
but i can pretend
the sun is gone
but i have a light
the day is done
but i'm having fun

i think i'm dumb
or maybe just happy
maybe just happy

my heart is broke
but i have some glue
help me inhale
and mend it with you
we'll float around
and hang out on clouds
then we'll come down
and have a hangover
have a hangover

skin the sun
fall asleep
wish away
the soul is cheap
lesson learned
wish me luck
soothe the burn
wake me up

i'm not like them but i can pretend
the sun is gone but i have a light
the day is done
but i'm having fun

i think i'm dumb
(dumb- nirvana)




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