psychomagnet

sleeptodreamher
2002-05-17 05:24:25 (UTC)

feel yourself for me

god. i dont even know what to fucking do. im so lost.
hes smoking out now and i think im guna puke. i almost
puked when i found out. and 3 hours later im here
finishing this bottle of vodka with blood dripping down my
leg and i think im going to vomit im so sick literally sick
with this all this i knew i wasnt okay but really when will
enough be enough.. i dont know how to make myself fucking
stop already. see that he is a completely different person
and how sick this all is i just feel like fucking shit.
i could not forsee this thing happening to you.. becoming
what we hated.. everything about you, what we hated, what
YOU hated and i hated for you fucking piece of shit god i
think im guna vomit hes no different from anyone else in
the whole fucking world hes no better than anyone i feel so
sick i want to punch him in the fuckng face and scream and
yell at him WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING WHO THE FUCK *ARE*
YOU! and i want to die. i want to sleep until i cant
remember his name. i want to wake up far far away and not
remember any part of the last 3 years. most of all i want
to not live anymore if every fuckng thing for the rest of
my life will continue to be this fucking disappointing and
disgusting.