MLCG

Scenes from a Marriage
2001-06-08 15:18:13 (UTC)

Friday, June 8, 2001

Well, he finally admitted he had sex with her once, one
month before she got pregnant. But, it really makes it
impossible for him to be the father. It crushed me when he
told me, but after a 2 hour session with the counselor she
said if I had any doubts then I should not give up yet.
Since I have doubts, I think she is right. I would hate to
see all the time I have invested go to waste, and someone
else get 30 good years when all I have gotten is 10 rough
years.

I am excited that my job will have me move to Omaha in 3
years, it will be a new beginning for us. We won't have to
tell everyone our life story, we can just be a "happy
family" that moved there from St. Louis. As a friend told
me, if I want to stay with him, then I just need to let it
go and get a fresh start. Omaha can be that fresh start,
or if he screws up again in the next 3 years then it will
be my fresh start.

My parents are mad of course, they think that love is not a
good enough reason to stay together. But, the therapist
said I might not be able to explain it, that I might just
have a "gut feeling" about it. And, my gut tells me to
stick it out.




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