I'm a girl, not a band!!!
2002-05-16 03:48:25 (UTC)


I am pissed. And when I get pissed, or angry or
frustrated, I handle that by crying. I can't help it. It's
how I release my feelings. And then it's over and done
with. Well, I just had a fight with my mom over the
stupidest thing (which most fights are over) and I'm
just....so annoyed, and so pissed. I mean, everyone here
is taking baby steps around me, and then when I do have
some reaction to something, they think "Oh, it's not
~L, not really. She's on new meds, and we'll just try
to calm her down and back away slowly." And that pisses me
off even more!! I feel like my own damn mother doesn't
know who I am!!! Like nobody believes that I'm me!! I feel
like....I don't know...but I don't know who to trust, who
will actually listen to me! And I'm so frustrated, and
annoyed and pissed and angry and scared and I don't know
what to do anymore.

Yes, I know I'll be fine, and things will look better in
the morning. But if I can't even vent in my own damn
journal, where the hell else can I do it?!!?!?