Oh,The Insanity
Ad 2:
2002-05-15 02:23:06 (UTC)

Once again, Dazed and Confused

I dunno what, exactly, is going on. I'm always lost. I
talked to Adam about another chance...AGAIN. And once
again, he said he'd think about it. I wonder, is he even
thinking about it or is it just his way of saying "no, just
leave me the fuck alone." Logan said that Adam's problem,
right now, is I'm giving him too much attention and I
should consider giving him some space. Yeah, the last time
I did that, he got REALLY pissed cuz I was "ignoring him"
(hey, thanks for the advice mom). I don't know what to
do. Today Adam told Josh S. that he should go to ball with
me...but I asked Adam. that makes me extremely sad, but
hey, who the hell am I to complain? I actually considered
asking Jeremy, after that, and decided against it. But I
swear to god, if Adam upsets me at the ball, I don't know
what I'll do. I'll most likely cry and then he'll feel
like shit...oh boy, can't wait. No, I don't think he'll do
anything stupid. This weekend is his prom and he's still
going with Jenn(blah). They didn't make dinner arrangments
so they'll "probably just end up at Wendy's." I feel kinda
bad for him. But I'm not going to say anything. I guess
I'm kinda afraid that he's going to go with Jenn, fall
madly in love with her, she'll get all skankariffic on him
and I won't exist anymore. That will make me VERY sad. Ah
well, I guess it's inevitable, sooner or later, he'll stop
knowing I exist and I'll be FORCED to move on. sigh