Anna

my babbling
2002-05-12 06:12:32 (UTC)

some thoghts on graduation

today i sat and looked at my clock.....every minute tat
passed was gone forever......i knoe im sounding a bit corny
and its just.....ive spent so much time in high school
worrying about college and grades and ugh.....i don't
know.....i just feel like ive wasted a lot of time.....and
today i was listening to an old cd that i had burned last
year?....anyhow.....tat supermodel song came on...and it
made me really really think....about a lot of things in
life....and certain people and certain things that i am
doing.......i dono.....this is gonna sound crptic.....but
tats the point......back to tat certain person....he did
such a dicky thing.....i can't believe it.....i mean.....i
certainly don't knoe exactly what went on......but still if
it had been me....i knoe i would have cried or at least
been really depressed.....so why am i not mad?.....i am a
little......but i should be upset?.......and i cant beleive
that prom is less than a week away....i mean.....in a
week....i will be at prom......and there is so much stuff
to take care of hair......nails?....accessories?.....plus i
still need to figure out the whole thing after.....i havent
even been to the damn condo......and its just the logistics
of everything id starting to bug me.....and i should be
studying for aps.....but like after i finished with calc
and stats....im like...nothing else matters......right?
sigh.......how did i become this lazy girl who stopped
caring bout school?......also graduation is coming closer
and closer.....and....i dunno.....ill have jenny.....and
tammy......and a bunch of other people tat i knoe are going
too.....but.....also.....there are many people tat arent
going to be there.......and its just sad.....and this
summer......im supposed to go to ny and dc.....and then
europe with my sister.......but like.....i can get along
with her for about 2 hours.....then we start to
fight......she came home today....but like.....i was in my
room and we havent really gotten a chance to annoy each
other.......but the opportunity is coming soon.....wat
makes me think im not going to try and sell her as a slave
somewhere when she really frustrates me.....plus everyone
keeps saying tat i look like her....i DONT!!!!!! dammit and
tats the one reason why im not sure if im ready to cut off
all my hair after prom......i mean.....i want shorter
hair....but tat'll just convince more people tat i look
liker her.......ugh......everything has begun to
frustrate/scare/annoy me.....




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