OhBaby It Is Me

MY SO-CALLED LIFE
2002-05-09 01:58:08 (UTC)

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So much has gone on in the past few days and I've not
cared to tell anyone about them in perfect hopes that I
wouldn't get made fun of for it. For some reason my best
friend is been extra testy the past few days. I've done
nothing to her and she telles everyone that I'm a bitch.
Well she can think whatever she wants b/c I've fliped at
her once since the canoe and since then she's knocked me
into the water, and left me all alone at the lake so I
guess in my eyes that would make us sorda even, but not in
hers apparently. That's fine with me though, I know that
she has some problems with her family, but I don't see why
she should take them out on me. I don't care though, I've
sorda gotten over my fear of being alone, I havn't talked
to her more then a sentence or two in the past few days and
I'm still alive. There is so much that I need to say and I
have no way to tell it and I know whatever I write in here
will be relayed to whomever I write it about. That's ok,
b/c if it is relayed, I have some seriously good
revenge!!! Blackmale Blackmale!!!! Well this is it, I'm
getting pissed off b/c Nick always tells me that he likes
that I'm myself around him, but when I try to act like
myself, he tells me not to. Does that make any sense at
all? (Don't answer that) Then there is somthing else,
something that really torkes me off, Dan, I don't know if
he'll read this, but what the hell have I done to him that
makes him not want to have anything to do with me, I mean,
he signes off the computer and/or blocks me whenever I get
online. I mean, it's one thing to be mad at a person and
it's another thing to be mad at a person and not tell
anyone why. I know that Chrissy is going to read this
probally tomorrow morning and there are a few things that I
want to say to you: I don't know what I did to you nor do I
care, but when I did care, I asked you, and you didn't give
me an answer, therefore, making you the bad guy and not
me. I asked that question so that I tell you that I was
sorry for whatever it was, but now that you neglected to
tell me, it means that your still hostial therefor your the
one that's being a bitch and no matter what your Dad says
or does to you, there is no reason for you to treat me bad,
no reason what so ever, and don't think that b/c we're not
friends anymore that I'm going to stop going to dance, and
give me back my bookbag tomorrow, or else,you don't want to
know what will happen. Oh there was something else I
wanted to tell you, if you don't stop this whole kicking
flirting with Nick, then I might have to do something about
it, and you also better stop bitching to Nick that I'm so
mean to you b/c if not then you can have him all to
yourself.


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A Thousand Miles

Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever think of me

Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in
Your precious memory

Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by,oh
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight

And I, I don't wanna let you know
I, I drown in your memory
I,I don't wanna let this go
I, I've fallen...

Making my way down town
Waking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time, would pass us by
Cause you kow I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...

If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
If I could just hold you... tonight