TurtleInkArtist
Chapter One: The Evil Within
Life's A Game Of Tetris....
That's exactly what it is... a fucking game of tetris.
You sit there and think that everything is finally falling
into place, and that you are going to clear that last row,
with this final piece, all preset, your just warching it
slowly fall, as you wallow in your self-satisfaction,
because you are clearing this challenging level, and you
know that you are going go to a harder one, but you will
work on it and do well... then you notice it, right before
the piece hits the final row, its the wrong way.... you
dont know how it was like that, you swore that it was
perfect, but its not, you over looked it, and then you are
back where you started, level one.... all over again...
well fuck nintendo, fuck tetris, and fuck life! Isnt that
a beautiful analogy!
Okay, well sorry about that, but thats how I feel right
now, and no I am not saying that my life sucks, or anything
like that, but I am not at my peak moment, nor is my life.
Speaking of life being shit, I am tired of hearing all
these people whinning over stupid shit, and saying there
life sucks donkey balls for some piddly reason
(^coughs^like AP courses^coughs^) Ya know what I have to
say to those whinning about shit like that? SUCK IT UP AND
DRINK SO FUCKING WATER!!! I am sorry, yes, maybe I do say
my life is shit, but what I am meaning to say is that it is
in the shitter right now, I try not to say it sucks,
becuase I have so many great things in my life, that it can
never completely suck... nothing can completly suck, except
maybe vacum cleaners, and some of them blow too!
Anyways, I saw Jenni Kent today, formally known as Jenni
Best, and I also saw Brian Flood. Matt and myself went over
to Candlewood in hopes to see my David... God I dont know
if I will be able to survive without him in 15 min driving
distance. :( Anyways, yeah, we saw them, she is now working
at K-Mart in Victor... Matt brought me home at 10, and then
went back over.... ^starts twitching^ there is a HUGE story
behind all of this, but no one want to hear it, I just hope
he doesnt piss off his parents by not showing up at home by
11 for his curfew. I dont know, I dont care, well I do, but
I suppose it doesnt matter...
Yeah, for English on Friday I have to bring in a Free
Verse poem, and read that or my Sestinia out loud, and I
dont want to do either. The only people I can write poetry
about are my Father, and Matthew, and people look into the
writting too much thinking I am this mushy person with a
deep inner self and feelings, well I am not, I write what I
think, and there isnt much behind it, sometimes there is,
but nothing I write is really ment to be look into...
Besides, I can only write negative stuff about my Father,
and Postive stuff about Matt, and either way, people assume
shit, about me and my writting, and i dont want them to do
that, bacause in the words of Matthew, "Yeah, Assume shit,
and me the one to make an ass out of u and me!!" Ugh, what
am I going to do, I cant afford the grade, maybe if I
explain that to him, but probably not, becuase he seems to
be very unsensitive about shit like that. GRR... I hate
this, what do I do, what do I do!?
Wanna read a great song? Too bad, cuase if you dont you'll
stop reading, and there will probably be more thoughts at
the end, but if you dont want song stop
reading............... NOW!! (and scroll down)
No More Drama by Mary J. Blige
So tired, tired of these drama
No more, no more
I wanna be free
I'm so tired, so tired
Broken heart again
Another lesson learn
Better know your friends
Or else you will get burn
Gotta count on me
Cause I can guarantee
That I'll be fine
No more pain (no more pain)
No more pain (no more pain)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
Noone's gonna make me hurt again
What a player fool
Go through ups and downs
Nowhere and all the time
You wouldn't be around
Or maybe I like the stress
Cause I was young and restless
But there was long ago
I don't wanna cry no more
No more pain (no more pain)
No more game (no more game messin with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
Nooone's gonna make me hurt again
No more tears (no more tears, I'm tired of cryin everynight)
No more fears (no more fears, I really don't wanna cry)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
I don't ever wanna hurt again
Wanna speak my mind, wanna speak my mind
Uh, it feel so good
When you let go
Avoid these drama in your life
Now you're free from all the pain
Free from all the game
Free from all the stress
So bye your happiness
I don't know
Only God knows where the story is
For me, but I know where the story begins
It's up to us to choose
Whatever we win or loose
And I choose to win
No more pain (no more pain)
No more game (tired of your playin' game with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
No more, no more, No more, no more
No more tears (no more tears, no more cryin every night)
No more fears (no more waking be up in the morning)
No drama, no more in my life
No more drama, no more drama
No more drama, no more drama
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
No more drama in my life
So tired, tired of these drama
Yeah, and here is another:
Blurry by Puddle Of Mudd
Everything’s so blurry
and everyone's so fake
everybody’s empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl
& you could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I’ll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that’s not very far
(Chorus)
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
everyone is changing
there’s no one left that’s real
make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
you could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
there’s oceans in between us
but that’s not very far
(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
the pain you gave to me
Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away
nobody showed you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away
(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
can you take away the pain
the pain you gave to me
this pain you gave to me
Yeah, well good night all... thanks for putting up with my bitchy
self and love of music.... Adios all!!!
Vicki E. M.