azzikah

Just in case i start thinking...
2002-05-07 02:56:47 (UTC)

what's a matter world well don't you see i've opened up

well alots been goin on. ive been like busy. picking up
MAD hours at work. and ive been just tired. i had a dr appt
last wednesday...i didn't go. i just like flipped and shit
about it. didn't want to go with mom was the main thing. i
guess im just big chicken shit but i don't think i coulda
handled it if he said "hey it didn't work" after the exam
and then had to go get more pills to hear "hey we can't
give em to you without a checkup" ida flipped. i just quit
cold turkey on my pills. jenny down at work was like tellin
me i dont need to and she did have points to what she was
sayin but yet again im chickenshit. i dunno. and i don't
know its just embarassing...and i know it is for everyone
but i guess i got a little more behind it.
mom and mike were fighting. were. she kicked him out but
then like 10 minutes later they "talked it out" fuck that.
i haven't said more that 4 words to him and the ones i have
said since then are obnoxious. im not taking shit no more.
im 17 years old and have been takin care of myself for most
of the 17 years therefore i have came to this conclusion on
taking shit... i don't have to. he aint my fucking daddy.
he aint my fucking mommy and he aint got 2 brain cells to
bounce off each other. want to yell about this that and the
fuckin other....hell now. this is MY fucking house. he
wants to play games then hes playin with the wrong person.
other than that i got my interm...failing 2 classes and
denied credit in another...gotta get my ass together. well
im out




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