Rtro80sguy

POZ BOY BOB
2002-05-05 15:22:03 (UTC)

Sunday May 5th


Well another weekend has just about past me up and nothing
to awful exciting has yet to be done. It is 8:05 am
and "daddy"is still in bed. Didnt feel well yesterday. The
day started out pretty ....ok and progressively got worse.
He started some new meds for his tremors and really caused
him to not feel well. I have been up since dawn and have
almost had my feel of coffee. Seem to be drinking it out of
boredom.

Friday night was a disaster. It started out with me happy
to be coming home from a long hard day. With flowers in
hand and a cd I thought he'd like. He seemed to like them
both but never kissed me or thanked me for either=(. This
put me in a funk and turned my mood downcast. After
getting over myself, and a little action in the shower and
a little 420 and things were good again. Then we decided to
have a 3 way. Terry has been wanting one for weeks. So at
1:00 am or so some bottom guy comes over.... Terry fucks
him and the guy comes and leaves. I was a non player. Which
is not how it is suppose to be. SO of course im upset
(shouldnt I be) and if the shoe was on the other foot so
would he have been. We go to bed and he wants to fuck me
now!!!

After the show of no appreciation earlier that day and his
lack of attention and affection over the course of the days
before plus choosing not to be with me last weekend. I feel
closed up inside and not real sure what to do. I feel he is
all I have and the only person that cares about me. I want
to be a better boy for him. I want to be everything to him.
But I cant seem to get it right. I hope with a few more
months of training I will be better and terry more pleased.
Maybe someday I'll be good enough that he will only want
my ass. As I only want him=).

Later.....




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