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Kristina's Personal Diary
2002-05-04 02:28:24 (UTC)

Happy, sad, and mad.

Yesterday and today has been so damn emotional for me.
I have to tell you what happened yesterday. Afterschool I
was kinda sad because Kevin saw me and all he said
was 'Kris' and that was it. This happened outside the
Magnet Office, we were going to tutoring but we were
waiting for Joselyn. Then she told us to go ahead to
tutoring because she's going to go to the restroom
afterwards and then go to tutoring. So as Susana and I
started walking to tutoring in Mr.T's class, we talked. I
told her I wanted to go home and cry because Kevin kinda
ignored me. But I'm just an emotional person, I don't
seriously mean it and I was so sad and depressed at the
times. So emotional that I felt like crying. Then Susana
and I got bored so we went to the bathroom. And then we got
bored and I was going to go the restroom again. I told
Susana to come w/ me. And I went outside and was waiting
for her and I saw Kevin coming. I was walkin' up to him
because I wanted to talk to him and hug him or something.
But then Mr. T had to come and told me to go back inside
because I already went to the bathroom. So I told him the
truth. I told him I felt like crying and I didn't want to
cry in his room and wanna go to the bathroom.
So then I saw Susana and Joselyn run up to him and they
started talking to him. I looked back and they pretended to
not be talkin' and stuffs. When I look at them, they would
just be giggling and all saying like,"Go on. Just keep on
walking" and stuffs like that. I was annoyed and tears were
in my eyes because I was emotional. Not because of that.
I went back to the room and all three of them were in
there. I asked Susana and Joselyn what they were telling
him. But they didn't have a chance to tell me because Kevin
came and he was like,"What's wrong?" and stuffs like that.
I just left outside and wanted to talk to Joselyn alone. I
told her how I felt at the time and started crying a bit,
just a bit and I said I didn't want Kevin to see me crying.
And he started walking up to us and Joselyn was like,"Leave
her alone" but in a nice way, not a harsh way. And she
started pulling me forward away from Kevin and walked fast
because she knew I didn't want him to see me crying. But
with his messed up ankle (cuz he twisted his ankle in
basketball), he ran up to us and was all holding on to me.
He was like,"What's wrong?" Joselyn, w/ her big mouth,
started saying all these shit. Like,"If she tells you,
it'll all be worse" and I think she said it had to do w/
him.
Kevin was like,"You guys are too difficult, I give up."
And then fuckin' Joselyn was like,"Noo. She has to tell
you. I'm going to leave you two alone and Kristina, you
can't run away." And he was like,"I'll make sure she
doesn't." But I didn't felt offended or nothing, he didn't
say it in a mean way.
Actually, my dad is behind me right now so I might just
submit this entry any time and leave u at suspense but I'll
return to write the rest. Just warning you ahead of time..
Anyways, I cried and was talkin' to Joselyn and Susana
joined later. I was so pissed at Susana because I found out
that Susana came up to Kevin and said,"You made Kristina
sad. You made Kristina sad because you didn't say hi to her
at the Magnet Office and you ignored her." Joselyn made
herself looked innocent here and Joselyn told me that it
wasn't Susana's fault because she thought Kevin knew I like
him. Joselyn said a friend backstabbed me, it was either
Jennifer or Thalia. I was so pissed at everyone, I cried.
Then afterschool, I went to 30th street and luckily, Kevin
wasn't there. Stephanie Pena and Joselyn walked me to the
car and started walking down the street. My mom told my
brother to get my sister and cousin who were still standing
at 30th street but I was like,"I'll go." So I went out of
the car and I asked Joselyn to walk me BACK there and
Stephanie Pena joined. Halfway down the street, Joselyn
told me Kevin was there and I was like,"Oh shit, I didn't
saw him." I told Stephanie to go call my sister and cousin
but Joselyn's all like,"No" and dragged me up to my sister
where Kevin was standing behind. They were back to back and
I told my sister we had to go and Kevin was there. Oh yeah,
I forgot to mention that Joselyn told me if I didn't tell
Kevin how I felt about him, her and Susana would tell him.




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