mistresslunatic

Lunatic's Asylum
2002-05-03 16:25:50 (UTC)

The Spined Worm Creeping Through My Sinus Cavities & Mushing My Brain

For the past month and a half, I've been nearly
incapacitated because of the throbbing, stinging, pounding
sort of things going on inside my skull. First it was a
sinus infection; after ten days of Amoxicillin, I seemed to
fare much better, but only for a week. I was put back on
the accursed antiobiotic and forced to spray steroids up my
nose... but after a CT scan was completed (and I hounded
the doctor's office for information), it was concluded that
I no longer had a sinus infection - but was still in
terrible pain. After describing to my doctor (I'd seen
two, back and forth, since it started - depending on who
was available) the pain in my face, tracing one shaky
fingertip over my left brow, along my cheekbone, and down
the curve of my jaw, she suggested I had an inflamed
trigeminal nerve. Well! That certainly explained things
(or seemed to), so I was put on Ultraset - a pain killer in
a class by itself, and it dumbed me up well enough so that
I didn't feel a thing - and also couldn't concentrate,
either. Unfortunately, I began to itch... and itch, and
itch... and began to break out in hives. So off with
that! Next comes the antidepressent Everil, or..
something. I wasn't paying attention. It's used, in small
doses, to treat Shingles (the adult form of chicken pox)
and seemed to do a wonder on nerve problems. So I started
to choke those down - knowing full well that I might not
feel the "full effect of relief" for a good week or so,
because I had to "ease myself onto the medication"....
Horsesh*t! It hasn't done a thing. Tomorrow, I believe, I
start the 30mg a night dosage. Bah-humbug. Yesterday
morning, upon waking and attempting to make my way to the
bathroom (which only requires a little stroll through the
living room, mind you) I had to stop twice. I was losing
my vision! Wonderful! Everything was becoming pixelated,
and the edge of my vision would go dark, only to creep its
way across the whole d-mned thing so I couldn't see for a
few seconds at a time. Mummy-dear called the doctor's
office again (they say they're going to name a room after
me) and I was dragged there, un-showered and lacking in
make-up, proper hair style, and without jewelry (the
horror - but I couldn't really see myself so it didn't
bother me). I could only read the eye chart down to line
6. WITH MY GLASSES ON. Bother and d-mnation. The third
doctor thinks it's migraines - but I've been getting those
since 8th grade... and these are nothing like my migraines
before. And the b-stards stole my blood! Thought I was
anemic! .. Anemia does not MAKE YOUR FACE TWITCH! It does
not CLAMP YOUR JAW! ARGH! ... So I had a nice little
anxiety attack (the poor nurse) and cried, and cried and
cried... (blood isn't an issue; needles are. I told her to
slit my wrist instead but she wouldn't do it!). Of course
the results were negative. So the doctor is upping my
dosage of Everil (or WHATEVER), and I'm to see a
neurologist in two weeks. ... And I stood up the
accupuncturist. Bother. I didn't realize until it was too
late.... So I'm stuck being miserable, and twitching, and
tired - and way behind in school work. For all I know I'm
dying of brain tumors, but who cares....? I want some
codiene - not like I can focus anyway. .




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