the life of me
may 2, 2002
did you ever get that feeling where you're absolutely sure
that the whole world is just crashing down on top of you?!
i got that today. i'm normally a really happy person, but
today... man today i was depressed MAJOR! i just couldn't
get out of my slum. russ is THIS CLOSE to asking deanne
out. and what will i do when he does?! die?!? yea,
probably. or at least i'll wish i was dead. choir tour was
fun though. i never knew nyc was so dirty. yuck, it was
sick! we saw some dude peeing on a wall while we were
waiting for the subway... and get this... he was 10 FEET
away from a bathroom! lol. *STUPID* hehehe. nut, smurf, and
i got really close though. we're seriously like sisters.
russ and i spent a lot of time together too. hehehe. it was
awesome. but back to life... he's deanne's... i had my
chance. maybe someday i'll get another one. :( until then,
i hope and pray and that's all i can do!