jenabean

Jena's Rants
2001-05-31 12:58:52 (UTC)

Ughhhhhhh...................

Today all I want to do is crawl in a hole and die. There
are just some days where I completely lack motivation. I
feel as if I am spiraling toward some type of fucked up
shit. I just can't seem to get my head on straight. I
know what you all are thinking - I DO TOO MANY DURGS!!!!
WRONG! I have barely touched any drugs in days, hah!
Don't I sound like a commercial to warn kids of the dangers
of gateway drugs. OH WELL. Besides I have been leaning
more and more towards the notion that maybe I am getting
too old to keep up with that kind of lifestyle. Oh don't
gasp like that. Yes it is possible for even Jena to know
when enough is enough. (It's never enough!) Stop that -
who said that? Nevermind. If anyone knows who that
annoying voice is that keeps telling me that getting
wrecked is the best idea I could possibly have in a day,
please let me know. I don't want to hurt them or anything,
I just want to know where the fuck they are hiding, 'cause
if I ever need to hide-out for a while I want to shack up
with that mf'r. I have nothing to say about my friends
lately. They are all wonderful and actually have a lot of
interesting shit going on in their lives, but I just don't
have the brainpower to sort all of the shit out and make
sense of it and then mold it into some sort of elaborate
storyline for shits and giggles. So, I dunno. Maybe I am
losing my edge..................




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