Jencaero

Happy Noodle Boy Rox!
2002-04-28 04:55:45 (UTC)

god. grrrrrrrrrrrrr im mad at me and annoyed at he

Afipunkgodess (11:28:34 PM): huh
draco752 (11:28:56 PM): you're stalling.....
Afipunkgodess (11:29:04 PM): you didnt ask me any question
Afipunkgodess (11:29:09 PM): so i dont know what to answer
with
Afipunkgodess (11:29:10 PM): lol
draco752 (11:29:30 PM): WHAT DONT YOU WANT TO CHANGE?
draco752 (11:29:33 PM): !
draco752 (11:29:38 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (11:29:48 PM): i didnt say that i didnt want
to change anything!
Afipunkgodess (11:30:03 PM): i said that i dont like
change!
draco752 (11:30:06 PM): ahhh!
draco752 (11:30:10 PM): fine!
Afipunkgodess (11:30:14 PM): there is a big difference
draco752 (11:30:17 PM): go suck a spotlight
Afipunkgodess (11:30:19 PM): no
Afipunkgodess (11:30:22 PM): youre not listening
Afipunkgodess (11:30:26 PM): youre not looking at words
Afipunkgodess (11:30:41 PM): id like to change a lot
Afipunkgodess (11:30:47 PM): but i dont like change in
general
Afipunkgodess (11:30:49 PM): look around you aldo
Afipunkgodess (11:30:52 PM): you see change all the time
Afipunkgodess (11:30:54 PM): your friends change
Afipunkgodess (11:30:59 PM): and theyre gone
Afipunkgodess (11:31:00 PM): forever
Afipunkgodess (11:31:06 PM): something always changes
Afipunkgodess (11:31:15 PM): and with that changing, you
lose
Afipunkgodess (11:31:21 PM): that is whats bad
Afipunkgodess (11:31:24 PM): change sucks.
draco752 (11:31:47 PM): eh
draco752 (11:31:59 PM): i'm all TOO used to it
draco752 (11:32:00 PM): i gladly embrace it now
Afipunkgodess (11:32:05 PM): how
Afipunkgodess (11:32:09 PM): how can you ever get used to
change
Afipunkgodess (11:32:12 PM): it is always different
Afipunkgodess (11:32:14 PM): it never ends
Afipunkgodess (11:32:19 PM): it never goes away
Afipunkgodess (11:32:26 PM): change is the one thing
Afipunkgodess (11:32:33 PM): that you can and cant depend
Afipunkgodess (11:32:34 PM): on
draco752 (11:32:37 PM): i've known nothing else my whole
life.....
Afipunkgodess (11:32:44 PM): same with everyone!
draco752 (11:32:47 PM): but i'm used to the chang
draco752 (11:32:49 PM): e
Afipunkgodess (11:32:54 PM): but each time things change,
theyre NOT THE SAME
draco752 (11:32:59 PM): i can and do
Afipunkgodess (11:33:08 PM): and when you put someone in a
different enviornment
draco752 (11:33:11 PM): just like i have sunburn, i am
used to change
Afipunkgodess (11:33:13 PM): it takes getting used to!
every time
Afipunkgodess (11:33:14 PM): @
Afipunkgodess (11:33:15 PM): !
Afipunkgodess (11:33:18 PM): that is not change.
Afipunkgodess (11:33:23 PM): it is but its not what i mean
draco752 (11:33:24 PM): yup
Afipunkgodess (11:33:26 PM): i mean PEOPLE change
Afipunkgodess (11:33:28 PM): LIFE change
draco752 (11:33:36 PM): thats what i like
draco752 (11:33:36 PM): but dont
draco752 (11:33:36 PM): at the same time
Afipunkgodess (11:33:46 PM): i hate change
Afipunkgodess (11:33:53 PM): at this point in time
Afipunkgodess (11:33:58 PM): and im not stalling
Afipunkgodess (11:34:05 PM): i dont stall
draco752 (11:34:06 PM): i'm too used to it
Afipunkgodess (11:34:14 PM): how the hell can you be used
to it?
draco752 (11:34:19 PM): you're not listening to ME this
time
Afipunkgodess (11:34:28 PM): yes i am.
Afipunkgodess (11:34:33 PM): youre tu used to it* too
Afipunkgodess (11:34:38 PM): youve become desensatized to
it
draco752 (11:34:48 PM): i've literally gone through it all
my life, CONSTANTLY.... i'm to used to it to care if
people leave or dont now, i just enjoy them while i can
Afipunkgodess (11:34:49 PM): you think its good but bad
Afipunkgodess (11:35:03 PM): but
Afipunkgodess (11:35:09 PM): thats too dismissive
permissive
Afipunkgodess (11:35:24 PM): you make it sound as if you
dont DO anything
Afipunkgodess (11:35:29 PM): dont CARE
draco752 (11:35:31 PM): exactly
Afipunkgodess (11:35:37 PM): and that youre used to it
happening
draco752 (11:35:43 PM): you probably see me as some big
freak
Afipunkgodess (11:35:51 PM): no matter how many times
people change on me, im NEVER used to it
Afipunkgodess (11:35:54 PM): why would i see that
draco752 (11:35:55 PM): but im just blah about it now
Afipunkgodess (11:36:00 PM): see, thats where youre wrong
aldo
Afipunkgodess (11:36:03 PM): you dont know me yet
draco752 (11:36:07 PM): i DO care
draco752 (11:36:07 PM): but not as much as i used to
Afipunkgodess (11:36:12 PM): i dont know me no one knows
me.
draco752 (11:36:19 PM): and i AM
Afipunkgodess (11:36:22 PM): but i beleive i know me the
most
Afipunkgodess (11:36:24 PM): but you sound
Afipunkgodess (11:36:30 PM): like you dont care
Afipunkgodess (11:36:34 PM): enough to prevent it
Afipunkgodess (11:36:40 PM): or to revert to something
that you loved
Afipunkgodess (11:37:01 PM): you make it sound as if its
inevitable for people to change AWAY
Afipunkgodess (11:37:07 PM): but you can influence it.
draco752 (11:37:13 PM): you're getting mad at me over
something that i didnt even do so DONT GET MAD AT ME!
Afipunkgodess (11:37:13 PM): you make it sound like you
cant though
Afipunkgodess (11:37:19 PM): im not mad.
draco752 (11:37:25 PM): when you have a reason to get mad
at me then DO IT
Afipunkgodess (11:37:28 PM): jst frustrated
Afipunkgodess (11:37:34 PM): im not mad at you.
draco752 (11:37:37 PM): but its not my fault that you're
facing change and you don't like it
Afipunkgodess (11:37:37 PM): i never said that
draco752 (11:37:49 PM): its part of life
Afipunkgodess (11:37:53 PM): EVERYONE IS FACING CHANGE
Afipunkgodess (11:37:59 PM): i ALWAYs face change
Afipunkgodess (11:38:02 PM): i ALWAYS dont like it
Afipunkgodess (11:38:04 PM): its not that.
Afipunkgodess (11:38:12 PM): you asked...
Afipunkgodess (11:38:21 PM): and i know its part of life
Afipunkgodess (11:38:29 PM): but i do have a right to not
like it.
Afipunkgodess (11:38:35 PM): you get too defensive
draco752 (11:38:37 PM): but it seems like you're getting
mad
Afipunkgodess (11:38:41 PM): but im not
Afipunkgodess (11:38:44 PM): just frustrated
draco752 (11:38:49 PM): and i don't like it when people
are mad
Afipunkgodess (11:38:52 PM): and when i phrase things this
way, people listen more
Afipunkgodess (11:39:06 PM): im not mad. im hardly ever
mad.
Afipunkgodess (11:39:13 PM): and when i am, it happens
Afipunkgodess (11:39:21 PM): and it passes
Afipunkgodess (11:39:31 PM): when im mad, i sit in my room
and cry
Afipunkgodess (11:39:34 PM): i dont yell
Afipunkgodess (11:39:38 PM): i dont rant i dont kick things
Afipunkgodess (11:39:41 PM): i skulk
draco752 (11:40:33 PM): well i'm sorry but i tend to not
listen more when people raise their voice
draco752 (11:40:39 PM): especially at me
Afipunkgodess (11:40:52 PM): im not raising my voice at
you aldo
draco752 (11:40:56 PM): i completely accept it when i
deserve it or they think i deserve it
draco752 (11:41:01 PM): but i did nothing
Afipunkgodess (11:41:09 PM): im not raising anything at you
Afipunkgodess (11:41:13 PM): god listen
Afipunkgodess (11:41:15 PM): im frustrated
draco752 (11:41:17 PM): but thats what i feel like you're
doing.....
Afipunkgodess (11:41:20 PM): but im not
Afipunkgodess (11:41:38 PM): i may be raising my voice
Afipunkgodess (11:41:41 PM): but not at you
Afipunkgodess (11:41:54 PM): its like when you have
different emotions, your voice changes
Afipunkgodess (11:42:07 PM): and when you want to make
someone listen
Afipunkgodess (11:42:11 PM): you change the way you skeap
Afipunkgodess (11:42:14 PM): *speak
Afipunkgodess (11:42:15 PM): sometimes
draco752 (11:43:30 PM): but i never raise my voice.....
Afipunkgodess (11:43:37 PM): but im not you
draco752 (11:43:43 PM): i hate it....
Afipunkgodess (11:43:44 PM): do you ever soften your voice?
draco752 (11:43:49 PM): it reminds me of when i was
little.......
Afipunkgodess (11:44:00 PM): okay look then aldo im sorry
it does.
draco752 (11:44:01 PM): my dad used to scream at me all
the time over ANYTHING........
Afipunkgodess (11:44:04 PM): im sorry
Afipunkgodess (11:44:08 PM): but this is not anything.
Afipunkgodess (11:44:11 PM): okay
draco752 (11:44:13 PM): and i dont like it
Afipunkgodess (11:44:14 PM): and im not yelling
Afipunkgodess (11:44:23 PM): if i was talking to you
draco752 (11:44:26 PM): i only do anything with my voice
when i'm onstage
Afipunkgodess (11:44:26 PM): i would not be yelling
Afipunkgodess (11:44:33 PM): i would be pulling at my hair
draco752 (11:45:01 PM): i'm sorry....
Afipunkgodess (11:45:05 PM): about what
draco752 (11:45:14 PM): its my fault of
misunderstanding....
Afipunkgodess (11:45:16 PM): ah. i dont seem to
understand you
draco752 (11:45:17 PM): its just what i took it as.....
Afipunkgodess (11:45:26 PM): you dont hold on to things
Afipunkgodess (11:45:30 PM): you dismiss them
Afipunkgodess (11:45:37 PM): youre a people person
Afipunkgodess (11:45:58 PM): and dont be sorry
Afipunkgodess (11:46:00 PM): *people pleaser
Afipunkgodess (11:46:11 PM): it seems
Afipunkgodess (11:46:13 PM): i wouldnt know
Afipunkgodess (11:46:17 PM): but it comes across
Afipunkgodess (11:46:18 PM): as that
draco752 (11:46:23 PM): i am.....
Afipunkgodess (11:46:33 PM): but what is the point in it
draco752 (11:46:36 PM): and i dont care if people call me
a suck up
draco752 (11:46:43 PM): which i trully do
draco752 (11:46:43 PM): but thats just what i do...
Afipunkgodess (11:46:49 PM): yet that is a contradiction
within itself
Afipunkgodess (11:46:59 PM): because you dont suck up to
those who call you one
Afipunkgodess (11:47:07 PM): although you claim to be one
Afipunkgodess (11:47:09 PM): why suck up?

draco752 (11:47:40 PM): its not exactly sucking up
Afipunkgodess (11:47:49 PM): what is it
draco752 (11:48:06 PM): its just that i dont like getting
people mad or angry or anything BAD at me.....
Afipunkgodess (11:48:20 PM): you know what aldo
Afipunkgodess (11:48:21 PM): to me
Afipunkgodess (11:48:27 PM): it makes me more "bad" at oyou
Afipunkgodess (11:48:29 PM): if youre not yoruself
draco752 (11:48:33 PM): its just i like seeing people happy
Afipunkgodess (11:48:39 PM): if you go out of your way to
avoid confrontation
draco752 (11:48:57 PM): i AM myself though....
Afipunkgodess (11:49:06 PM): ah. but you dont stick up for
yourself
draco752 (11:49:09 PM): well one OF me...
draco752 (11:49:09 PM): i've never trully KNOWN myself....

draco752 (11:49:34 PM): thats one of the bad things bout
being and actor....you dont know who you TRULLY are.....
Afipunkgodess (11:49:42 PM): has anyone
draco752 (11:49:47 PM): i only confront people when
they're mad at me withought reason
Afipunkgodess (11:49:48 PM): thats not about being an
actor aldo
Afipunkgodess (11:49:58 PM): it has nothing to do with
being an actor
draco752 (11:50:00 PM): when they have reason then i'm
perfectly fine
Afipunkgodess (11:50:03 PM): but theres ALWAYS reason
draco752 (11:50:07 PM): yes
draco752 (11:50:19 PM): well its not
Afipunkgodess (11:50:26 PM): no one knows who they are, i
think
draco752 (11:50:31 PM): but i just dont think there is any
person OTHER than me....
Afipunkgodess (11:50:32 PM): and if they ever do, they
always change
draco752 (11:50:49 PM): see.........
draco752 (11:50:57 PM): then who am i to say that i'm NOT
myself.......
Afipunkgodess (11:51:11 PM): you dont think there is any
person other than you , what?
draco752 (11:51:16 PM): i change too
draco752 (11:51:17 PM): not TOO much
draco752 (11:51:17 PM): just my perception of things
Afipunkgodess (11:51:21 PM): how do you know
Afipunkgodess (11:51:24 PM): if you dont know yourself
draco752 (11:51:27 PM): people still see me the same but i
always constantly change
draco752 (11:51:41 PM): only i notice the change, no one
else
Afipunkgodess (11:51:51 PM): thats what im saying about
constant change
Afipunkgodess (11:51:55 PM): yes, but if you change
Afipunkgodess (11:52:00 PM): then you dont know who you
are again
Afipunkgodess (11:52:04 PM): because youve changed!
Afipunkgodess (11:52:07 PM): things about you have changed
draco752 (11:52:08 PM): but you just said no one trully
knows themselves
draco752 (11:52:18 PM): all i know is that i am who i am
and i do what i do
Afipunkgodess (11:52:18 PM): i dont see how they could.
draco752 (11:52:30 PM): and its working fine for me so why
try to figure it out and change
Afipunkgodess (11:52:37 PM): change what
draco752 (11:52:43 PM): and i gotta go
draco752 (11:52:43 PM): its late