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All Fucked Up
2002-04-27 07:52:05 (UTC)

Live For Today

Derekk, I love you. Your 28th birthday was on Tuesday.
You'll never know how good it was to hear your voice, savor
every word w/soothed ears. I miss the way the sunlight
would illuminate your lips as you frolicked through the
white sands of Venice, proclaiming an end to innocence.....

I miss the way you would laugh infectiously at things that
weren't the slightest bit amusing, thus causing others
around you to do the same...

I miss the way you'd boyishly smile w/those ultra pearly
whites hidden beneath red wine lips that had kissed the
white laced legs of Neptune....

I miss our days of nestling together in the sand of endless
summers as the whole world died behind us, emerging in its
own vast insignificance...how we'd ramble on under the warm
sun about the many ways we'd one day kill Jeff....

I miss watching you swim past the breakers and fall
completely into a rip tide, watching as the tattoos on your
broad white back became one w/mother ocean....

I miss those nights we tried to die....

The smell of weed and sex on your sweat soiled bed.....

Your overly matured hazel eyes.....

The white wife-beaters you'd wear everyday......

Your reddish hair that you tried to conceal w/hair dye.....

The model airplanes hanging from your bedroom ceiling....

The way you'd subsequentally light them on fire and throw
them through the air, watching deviously as your long hours
of work were annihilated by your own will....

The whole, "live for today"/Edge City L.A. attitude.....

Your twenty eight, man. An adult. One, who, if I may say,
has come a long way through life, and although mature,
needn't ever grow up. Stay a lost boy in Neverland w/me
forever, will ya...Derekk??

"I live for the sun because it means fun....sunsets are for
lovers....and little girls and their brothers...."-- The
Stingrays, "I Live For The Sun"




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