kjell

-gilmanpunk-
2002-04-23 19:50:23 (UTC)

straight edge kjell

hey. lately i've been thinking, and i've been getting MORE
straight edge this year. i mean i always have been sXe, i've
never tried anything, but in the past it wouldn't bother me
that other ppl did drugs. now on the other hand, it bothers
me a lot. sometimes i even find myself yelling at ppl because
they got high or got drunk. i used to think "oh well it's
their buisness what they wanna do with their life" but when
it's someone i care about, sometimes i get upset. i don't
mean to be rude, i know it's their choice but it's just sad.
i'm gonna tell a story:

a good friend of mine... i'll call her courtney... no that's
a stupid name... ariel. (...that's the name of the little
mermaid and i always thought it was a cute name) ...anyways,
ariel and i used to be such awesome friends. for most of high
school, she was what i could call a best friend. i told her
everything. i mean it too- you could ask her any question at
all about me and chances are she could answer correctly. and
best of all, she was straight edge and proud of it. But i
guess over the summer this year or... sometime around then,
she changed. i mean she's still cool but her outlook on drugs
and alcohol changed a great deal. i've heard that she's a
"total pothead" now. and ariel's a lot different whenever i
see her. she doesn't wanna talk very often and when we do
talk, she doesn't even seem to be listening. last week she
came in with this huge "unexplained" mark on her arm. and
today it looked like some guy left his mark on her neck. it's
really sad and i feel like crying sometimes when i look at
her picture from freshman year but i know that won't help
anything. and even tho i myself am sXe, whatever she does IS
her life, it IS her choice, and i know that she doesn't want
some sXe prick shouting out his opinions at her.

*kjell




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