Sleeping with the lights on
2002-04-22 14:14:06 (UTC)

I'm so sorry.

I don't feel like I am good enough for Jeff. I love him so
much but I don't know, ever since just
realized that I love him so much and I told him and I don't
know if he took it the way I meant it. I don't know. I can't
explain how I feel but it is like fucked up. I don't know, I
have been listening to dashboard confessional all day so
that is probably why I am so fucking ahh..I am like really
depressed. I don't know why..I just want to be the person
to Jeff that he is to me. Does that make any sense?
I want to give you whatever you need,
What is it you need? Is it within me??
I don't know, our relationship just feels too good. I want
to be with him forever..and that scares me because the last
guy that I wanted to be with forever hurt me really bad. I
don't want to pull away from him, but I don't want to
smother him..but i want to see him so bad right now. he told
me that if we saw each other every day it wouldn't be a good
thing, and I agree with that..but..I could see myself with
him for the rest of my life. WHY? I'm only fucking 16, I
don't know what that is. I don't want to get married, but I
don't want this relationship to's gotta be
the dashboard..