blushing

is it over yet?
2002-04-22 00:53:38 (UTC)

beautiful chaos

the neighbors called. they heard me scream. when no one
picked up the phone, they came over. there was blood all
along the tile. and i was lying by the doorway, crying. dad
was coked out on the couch looking at me in disgust. no one
answered the door. no one moved. dad and i looked at
each other. i wanted to answer it. i wanted to leap towards
it, open it, and thank them for saving me. but i couldnt
move. couldnt talk. couldnt breathe. couldnt hold my head up
to look at them. eventually, they went away. figuring, most
likely, that no one was home. what am i going to do? its
getting worse. considerably. and im pushing everyone away.
im sorry. im so fucking sorry. bill---god, im sorry. i miss
you mom.
margo




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