PleasantDeath

Into the Darkness
2002-04-19 22:28:43 (UTC)

Ughhhh...

This weekend is probably going to be hell. I can feel it.
There's so much negative energy around me right now and I
just need to give it time to go away... but I don't know if
that will happen... We hope. I feel so bad for everyone
around me. Some people because they are ignorant to so
much, others because they have to deal with so many bad
things. I just want to take it all away, make them happy. I
want to see my friend Steve. His father died and I feel so
terrible. I don't even know my father, but I'd be upset if
he died. I can't imagine what it would be like if you knew
him and saw him all the time. I don't know what I'm going
to do or say when I see him, but I really want to. *sigh*
I'm sick of dealing with all of this stuff and right now
I'm so depressed and I just want to sleep or something. I
have no release either... I just don't know what to do now.
I go from being happy to being upset and depressed daily
and it's just not something I've learned to deal with yet.
Depression fine, happiness fine... but not both going back
and forth... ughhh well I'm going.. there's nothing else to
say.




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