camicazy

Loath

be with the people who you think accept you but who adore
you.

be with the people who you think love you but who only love
the face you portray.

be with the people who you want to worship you.

be with the people who you think cares for you but don't
give a fucking damn about you.

yes you. you piss me off.

you piss me off with your friendly smiles. you piss me off
with your false care. you piss me off with your flirtatious
moves.

you piss me off because you're clever. you piss me off
because you're a bimbo. you're a fucking clever bimbo. i
don't hate clever people. i hate bimbos. and you're a
fucking clever bimbo.

you piss me off with your tank tops. you piss me off with
your unproportioned body. you piss me off with your scent,
your hair, your fucking story about your past. you are
nothing.

i hate your lies. i hate your stories. i hate the way you
come across as pretty smart and happy. i hate the way
people say i'm jealous of you because i'm fucking not. i
don't wanna be like you. because a lot of people hate you.

it is a perfect way to end a perfect day of a perfect week.
i saw you again. i talked to you again.

i hate it that you called. i don't wanna hear your voice. i
hate it that you're using god's name in vain. i hate it
that you sound so cheerful. i hate everything about you.

i hate the way you ridicule me. i hate the way you seem to
be so gentle one minute and rude and sarcastic the other. i
want to throw you against the wall and see the blood smear
down to the floor. i hate you. i hate you.

i hate all of you. i hate the way you think you're so cool.
i hate the way you think you're different. because you're
not. you're just like every other guy.

i hate the way you control my life. i hate the way you
think you're so smart. i hate the way you think i enjoy
your company when in fact i don't.

you piss me off with everything you do. everything you say.

you think you're so funny. you think you're so nice. you
think you're so goodlooking. well i'm telling you you're
fucking not.

you think you're so smart. you think you're so cool. you
think you're so nice. you are not. you asshole. you bitch.
you son of a bitch.

fuck you all. i don't wanna talk to you again. i don't
wanna see your bloody face or faces. i would rather bite my
lip than talk to you. cut my ears than listen to you. bite
my tongue than taste what you have in store for me.

but i don't give you bullshit. i give you the fucking
truth. and you fucking get on my nerves.

is it so hard to understand that i hate you? i hate you. i
hate you. i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i
hate you i hate you.

be happy that i don't cut myself anymore. be happy that i
don't burn myself anymore. i will not cry for you. i will
not waste my tears on you because you are not fucking worth
it.

you piss me off with your hypocrisy. you piss me off with
your smiles and laughter. you piss me off because you want
me to be everything that you are not and never will be.
well i am not you. so fuck off. fuck off.

i will not take your criticism anymore. i will not listen
to your bullshit anymore. i will not take your snide
remarks. i will not let you bloody control my life.

and i will not let you affect me even if you are already
affecting me at this very moment. i will not. i shall throw
up and release all this poison in me. poison that you gave
to me. poison that destroyed me. withered my heart until it
melted into one small piece of black coal.

i don't wanna be lonely. i just wanna be alone. and you
fucking leave me alone.

you leave me alone you bastard. you bitch. you fucking
asshole.

you have destroyed me. you undermine me. you took me in for
your darkness. you took me in for your blackness and
blindness. i shant be blind no more. fuck off.

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