scarrin

the rollercoaster costs 5 dollars.
2002-04-19 04:28:06 (UTC)

I'm at my best when I'm terrorist inside...I'm at my best when it's all me.

Stop the press. I can play "Jingle Bells" with my guitar.
Ok so I'm like 8 months a little early, but I still think
it kicks ass. In fact I'm going to go play it for another
30 minutes after I type out this thing.

I saw the light rail girl today. She looked dang good.
I've figured it out though - the lightrail girl is a
comnbination of Colleen and Dana. That's why I have this
stupid "comfy love of a stranger" thing with her. She has
the cosmo-madonna-hippy-vintageclothes thing going on like
Colleen always does, so she looks like the best friend
type, but then her face looks like Dana. I'll never be
able to ever approach this girl. I had to get off the
fucking train early tonight actually because I was
freaking out so bad. She was sitting in the seats behind
mine and we were facing each other the whole ride home. I
couldn't do it. I was so damn shy. And when I see people I
really like, I usually take cover and duck. I keep pussin
out on talking to this girl. It's not gonna happen. I'm
finally coming to the realization. Maybe someday something
really stupid or strange will happen on the train and
we'll talk..but until then this is only a fuckin daydream.

Not much else is going on. I talk to Marci everyday now
and we're becoming good friends. If I keep getting a ride
to work with her though, I might not be on this planet
much longer. Talk about bad fucking drivers. I thought I
had issues.

Paul's out drinking tonight with Caplan....and he really
torqed me off when he called me a lazyass tonight before
he went out the door...I have been doing shit ALL week
long and I've been doing way productive things, not
drooling over some girl and being PW'd....scuba diving,
errands, guitar lessons, applying for school, working my
own job plus my special assignments that they are starting
to drill me with...working MY connections to try and pull
him a string for a job....and he calls me a
lazyass....because I actually finally have a day to kick
back and rest and it's the only night in about 4 months
that he's told someone he's going to go out without his
girlfriend and ACTUALLY does it...that fuckin pisses me
off....grrrr.


Anyways, time for me to go practice and go to bed.




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