ShadeofGrey

Desperately Wanting...
2002-04-19 02:47:18 (UTC)

The Places that you've come to fear the most...

Time passes so quickly lately. Next week I'll be on Kairos
most of the week. Then bam...it's prom. And then
graduation. And then I'll finally be done. With the
nonsense arguments. The 60 year old woman growling at me
because my posture is not up to her standards. Literally.
Growled at me. Up in my face. 60 years old. Ughh.
Anyways...today started out not so well. And it
progressively got worse. Then much better. Thanks boys!!
They cheered me up. Sam's Club. Candy peaches! mmmmmm....so
anyways. I've been thinking a lot about college lately.
Waiting for the letter from state to come in. Dying to know
which way it's gonna go. Terrified. I come home and get the
mail and I'm terrified. And the Chris thing. What to do?
because I don't want these games anymore. I want a friend.
I want someone to talk to. I don't want to constantly
wonder what will come next. That was the complexity I
thrived on a year ago and it eventually sucked the life out
of me. I don't know if I'm ready to deal with that again.
Such a good kid. But the frustration. I just don't know.
Comprehension is lacking. Cannot understand at all. *Your
eyes say the joke's on me* I'm at a loss of words for it
anymore. I'm hoping for the best. But I just dont know. I
just don't.




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