camicazy

family!!!!!!!!!!!!

why? why why why why? i'm here in melbourne.. why does my
family still have to affect my life so?!

i don't wanna go into detail... i'm too depressed. arrgghh!
i wish they'd stay out of my life! i wish they'd leave me
alone! why?!

they're bloody messing up my life!! why can't they let me
be?! why can't they just leave me alone?!

i wish i can be alone!! i wish i can support myself! i wish
i can just live my own life without them meddling into it
and messing up my life!! they don't even ask me whenever
they make bloody family decisions?! are their children not
part of the fucking family?!

bloody pissed off!! my grades are not high enough!! i don't
think i can get into law! my dad said that if we do get the
pr i might just need to get a 95% and then i'll be able to
get into law. CAN'T HE NOT SEE THAT I'M HAVING A HARD TIME
JUST TYRING TO GET A FUCKING 90%?!?!?!?

i was supposed to go back to my country on the 3rd of
june!! but now.. because of this fucking pr, I CAN'T GO
BACK ON THE 3RD!! BECAUSE I HAVE TO SIT THROUGH A BLOODY
EXAM ON THE 13TH!!!

and what's more is that the embassy is already calling my
parents for medicals and interviews!!! they're going to
decide whether my parents will be prs by the end of june!
and i don't get my offer letter from melbourne uni before
then!!!!!!! FUUUCCCCKKKK!!!! I DON'T WANT THEM HERE IN
AUSTRALIA!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO BE WITH THEM!!

I DON'T WANT THEM TO BE PRS!!! I DON'T CARE IF I'M NOT AN
AUSTRALIAN CITIZEN!!! I JUST WANNA GET INTO MELBOURNE UNI
DAMMIT!! AND BECAUSE OF THIS FUCKING PR SHIT I DON'T SEE
MYSELF GETTING INTO MELBOURNE UNI!!! MY CHANCES ARE BLEAK
ALREADY AS IT IS!! GIVE ME A PR AND I WILL DEFINITELY NOT
GET INTO MELBOURNE UNI!! I WILL NOT GET INTO LAW!! I WILL
NOT BLOODY BECOME A FUCKING LAWYER FOR OUR FUCKING COMPANY!

i don't know if i truly have a passion for law...but i've
always seen myself as a lawyer when i grow up. and now...i
don't even know if i should take law! and i feel so lost!!
so absolutely lost! what am i supposed to do now?!?!

AAARRGGGHHH!!! I AM SOOO PISSED OFF!! PISSED OFF AND
DEPRESSED AND FRUSTRATED!!!! WHY ?!?! WHY WHY WHY WHY
WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

my head feels like it's about to explode! i can feel the
blood rushing up to my face! BLOODY HELL!!!

WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!