Harley_Quinn

ThOuGhTs Of A LoTuS ChiLd
2002-04-14 16:29:22 (UTC)

Cough Medicine is Liquid Poision

i cant breath....my lungs are so tore up...i keep coughin
and im scared cuz i kno i'll be tastin blood soon.

my mind is not my own...feeling like my will is weak

i wrote manda an email a bit ago.i realized i never even
call her anymore,but thats cuz shes always working or not
in the mood to talk..who can blame her.i dont know how she
does it..shes so much stronger than i could be.oh
yeah...shes engaged,chris popped the question.gary needs to
give me his address so i can write chris in jail..he prolly
thinks i bailed out on him too...:(

the weekend was pretty much bust..well kinda.friday i
decided to go to the mall with adam.i bought a book called
Versus That Hurt...those poems are so good..inspired me to
write about sum things too.adam got a george carlin
book.well i went to bobs after that..no one there
really.clarissa,her bf billy,mallory,and james were
there.mallory said Jason Harris was having a party so i was
like shit lets go.so we get there and there are maddddddd
fucking ppl up in that joint.lots i knew.Moorehead was
there rollin face.reath crackhead seth alicia ginger julie
myke sarah minnick cheeko scott robyn and brianna were sum
i knew.well i drank a Sky and sum beers and sum of reaths
Old E.and everyone was breaking out the fucking weed.next
thing i know robyn turner busts out two bottles of perkacet
and xanax...and said take what we want. so me and reath was
madd snatchin at them.so i did up sum xannies myself and me
and reath matched.he hooked me up with perks tho too.see me
and reath got that same mind level thing..thats what makes
us such friends.well i sat and chilled with zach cheek (aka
cheeko ) for a bit.then we all passed out.me and cheeko
split the couch.we all woke up the next morning and the
place was fucking trashed..im talking bout beer cans
everywhere.cigg butts on the floor,madd chronic haze and
smell everywhere,missin botlles and lightbulbs (reath and
crackheads doin)hehe. and fucking puke in the
bathroom.jason was madd stressed and we was like shit get
this nigga high.so we did and he just chilled on his bed
and fucking drank beers with us.i got adam to come pick me
up and when i got home i found my missin weed stash.woo woo
!!! so me and my sis got fucking baked allllllllll day.i
didnt even do anything saturday..just chill wit my sis and
get high.then i fucking crashed.
well no gary..i was saddened..he hasnt called lately
either..go figure..ppl have been calling lately but ive
been so fuct up that i dont even remember talking to em,

I'm such a fucking addict

now i have to spend today working on my humanties fair
project thats due tommorrow.which means i need to be semi-
sober.which sux..i cant go through a day bein semi
sober.well i got shit to do so im out.




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