i can't explain how i feel at the moment. i feel happy and
yet sad. important and yet insignificant. intelligent and
yet dumb. perhaps it's because of the song that i'm
everytime i listen to a song, i feel this rush of emotion.
sometimes i feel sad, sometimes nostalgic...sometimes
angry...sometimes happy and hyperactive...
the music i listen to say so much about me. most of them
actually. i listen to basically three kinds of music: rock,
love songs, and new age. but of course, i listen to rock
more than anything.
i don't know how i'm feeling right now...so i dedicate this
entry to all the bands out there who have turned my
thoughts into music. i love music...i love songs...songs
that speak my heart out...songs that i pour my soul into.
one day, i would like to write a song.
and so i write down my thoughts for today in the form of
lyrics. try to figure out which songs these lyrics came
'violent sons make bitter mothers...'
'if shame had a face i think it would kind of look like
mine...if it had a home would it be my eyes...'
'walked around my room not thinking..just sinking in this
box...blamed myself for being too much like somebody
else...never thought i would just bend this way...'
'give me release...witness me...i am outside...give me
peace. heaven holds a sense of wonder and i wanted to
believe that i get caught up when the rage in me
'it's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd
'did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all
faded? and that heaven is overrated...'
'you're the beauty that is deeper than the eyes can merely
see...the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing
'can you take it all away...can you take it all away...well
you shoved it in my face...this pain you gave to me...'
'you could see me bleeding...and you would not put pressure
on the wound...you only think about yourself...you only
think about yourself...'
i should get back to work now...my mind's going a bit
crazy...maybe it's cuz i'm hungry but...oh well. i was
called crazy last night. i take it as a compliment.