spitfire

Realizations of a 24yr old convict
2001-05-23 22:47:45 (UTC)

OK Fuck sleep What is this shit..

OK Fuck sleep
What is this shit since school got out Ive been sleeping
like 8 to 10 hours every night and I fucking hate it no one
will wake me up either cause they think I need the sleep
or some shit but Its just a visious cylce where if I keep
sleeping this much then when I can only get a few Im gonna
be pissed
Really Im just mad cause i havent done a fucking thing
since school got out I go to work then come home and sleep
I might as well be any of those fucking lames I work with
who thats all they do is go to work then go to the bar then
go home to watch a little TV and thell be doing the same
thing 10 years from now. Girly thinks Im insane cause its
only been less than a week but you know It dont make a fuck
you know how much shit I could have done in a week I havent
even worked out int two weeks cause finals then this lazy
ass week.But you know how could see even under stand she
exactly who Im talking about I dont know mabe her life has
a point to it mabe some deep ass shit I missed but you know
if watching game shows is a way of life Im just at a total
loss in this world.
Ok theres more to it than all that I guess here we go
probly gonna cut this short but who knows
Ok I just kinda trip from life to life and check them all
out so Ive ben trying to get a grip on where Im at and what
the locals are all about I rember I wrote that my life had
become a bad version of a john cougar mellon camp song.
and I was kinda cool for a minute with it like how these
small town folks get down but last night was it Im cool
like going to dennys with my boy after work is cool and
there whole white trssh thing is almost charming the way
they pull it off but with out school and books and
everyhing else I see how they really live this whole go to
work have a little family and die
this life, Ok Im a factory worker in a small town which is
cool as an end to a means but see they dont do anything
else and I was just working and thinking about this when my
homboys daughter calls to see if I want her to bring the
hommade food,Ok its rad how my boys family always brings
him what ever there eating they bring him a plate of... so
these are some of the almost charming things they do tyhat
make me appreciate his life,I already had some A&w so Itold
her Iwas cool ,so she shows up and shes is total house wife
style like wearing sweats and shit so then shes like hang
out and were talking while I work and Im thinking this is
it this is the whole trip right,This is the whole vision of
how itd be in my head Im looking at her and seening how
they do it like this is my job and this is the little wife
and she brings the homemade food and hangs out for a few
and everyone wqhere I work knows her the wifie and like
shed totally come pover wearind slippers pregnet and hey i
was like alright cool I got it now this is way they do it
right here. Hey so like Im looking at her laughing about
the whole though and like Im starting to respect these
dudes in a whole new light for how they live,Hey so shes
reading a paper and add right and Im just think I know its
a walmart add cause that fits the whole seen so perfect
and she like no its a kmart add, And then I just start to
laugh so hard cause isnt that even more perfect,
Ok so I got it now the whole thing the feeling of it.
And as cute and cxharmingly WT as its sounds almost heart
warming little family cute ass couple of youngsters ME and
her,
Then I though holly fuck that aint me that aint anything I
want where the fuck did I go with that but now at least I
got It, this would normally be my que to move on to a
different seen but parole and police trip aint letting me
go anywhere , Must remember to keep level head and not
start falling in love with this little towns ways
Cause Ive seen it happen to to many people who couldve done
somthing huge,
With love
spitfire,




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