Rae

Rae Chronicles
2002-04-08 00:12:08 (UTC)

im pooped

I just got home from work and I'm pooped. I really not into
getting up and walking around. Im too pooped. so ill
probably spend the rest of my evening planted in front of
my computer screen thinking about Justin.

I worked today from 10 AM to 7 PM bussing tables. It's
brainless work but it tires you out. Now i wanna hangout
with my sister but SHES at work. AND I have to wait 2 hours
and 15 minutes longer before I can talk to Justin. I was
timing it all day long. I wasn't timing how long until I
got out, it was how long until I get to talk to Justin. 2
hours 14 minutes.

Okay this weekend, on friday me and alicia stayed in, Jen
came over and we got pretty blazed. I ate so much Easter
candy. I must have gained so much weight.

Saturday was so awesome but it was so terrible. I got to
meet justin finally. Of course, as revealed previously, i
have a massive crush on Justin. (2 hours 12 minutes) Me
alicia and caroline went to the Solomons Pond Mall to pick
him up. Hes so cute, he was hiding in hot topic when we
were waiting for him cuz he said he was scared. Then we
went back to Caroline's house. and i was squished thisclose
to him the ride home We just chilled. then we went to
Alicia's Dad's house for her sisters birthday party. (the
fun never stops at the shanahan house) it wasnt so bad, I
loosened up around Justin.

Then we went to the mall. It seemed like he was ignoring
me and he was like all over alicia (okay so that was a
minor exageration) well, it made me upset. just kinda irked
me and irked me more and more until i was in a terible mood
and being really bitchy. Alicia knew i wasnt the happiest
person ever and justin was behind tapping us on the head
(and ass) with a kite alicia got. when he hit me in the
head I reached behind me grabbed the kite and whipped down
onto the ground. of course justin tried to talk to me and
he put his arm around me. i was like pushing him away. I
was so pissed off. I was upset that I like Justin and upset
that I can never have him and I was especially pissed that
he was ignoring me!

then i started feeling so stupid. I stopped being pissed
and just started being sad! I wouldnt really talk to Justin
and when they were asking me why i was pissed i didnt even
know!

we left the mall (w/ me still in a bad mood, im such a
party pooper) it was me alicia jen mindy and justin. me
alicia and jen were squished in back. we went to Ayer to
see Chris (i dont know who the hell decided that one) Chris
is by the way the guy that I was really into and he was
into me and when we met he decided (and vocalized) that i
am too ugly for him. So, we went to my favorite persons
house. Of course his house is beautiful, hes like rich. I
sat down in his room and unknowingly sat in gum. I then
sat on the floor in the living room and on his sofa. So
there was gum on the floor and the sofa I felt pretty dumb.
by that point i had gotten over myself, was no longer
completely upset and was sitting between justin legs. Hes
so cute.

Alicia came into the BR w/ me to help get the gum off the
pants. I wouldnt let her stay cuz i was wearing thong
undies. she went out and told justin. when i came out of
the BR justin came into the kitchen and was being such a
sweetheart. He was like ' so you wouldnt let alicia help
b/c you're wearing thongs?" and he put his hand on my tummy
and it was just so cute I just wanted to hug him.

God, i love that guy. I dont know if alicia told him that i
like him or not but I do not want him to know. He probably
does already. I dont want him to know because I feel like
I would do anything for him. That is not a good sign for a
15 year old virgin that wants to keep it that way.

When we were saying goodbye I gave him a big long hug and i
apologized for being pissy. and i asked him if we were
gonna hang out again and he said i promise and we hugged
again.

1 hour 48 minutes

I ruined anything that could ever be with Justin. B/C im so
dumb and i had to have a hissy fit. I should be beaten to
within an inch of my life.

argh.

*s*RAE*d*

hes so awesome.




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