blushing

is it over yet?
2002-04-07 20:27:41 (UTC)

suicide 2

wrist is really bad. bill called me and asked if i could
come over. i didnt know what to say. he sat on my bed and
said that he didnt want something to happen to me---just to
think things through. and then he got up kissed my forhead
and left. maybe i dont want to be here anymore. maybe i
should just...get it over with. i dont want to be here. dad
doesnt want me to be here. im just a burden to him. bill and
i are nothing now that he found out about jon and i. and
jon---he wouldnt know if i killed myself if i did it right
infront of him. so maybe this is it. maybe this is as good
as it'll ever be. maybe this is all im meant to have--or
become--or die as. does anyone here me?
margo




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