Kai

The World Around Me
2002-04-07 05:24:18 (UTC)

My Beautiful Ex

i'm sitting at my computer this evening, basically sitting.
that's about it. i'm listening to this friend of my mom's
basically ramble on about nothin. he has nothing good to
say, he's just talking. unfortunately, it's within distance
of my ears. i hate the fact that no matter what i say, he
ignores it. as if ANYTHING he has to say has anything to do
with my life. AT ALL. he's got this thing with assuming
the "father-figure" position. my dad lives in vermont and
hasn't lived anywhere near me in so many years, i can't
remember the last time that i didn't have to call him long
distance. IF i wanted to call him. which i don't. all in
all, i think my family's isn't necessarily what ANYONE
would call normal. my oldest sister is 22 and on psych
meds, my 2nd oldest sister is 21 and has found a new found
religion, i'm the middle child-isn't that enough?, my
little sister has anger management problems-the last time
we fought my left ear rang for a week-she hit me, and my
little brother is the only boy-which of course means that
he's always the victim-at 13. my mom, who i admire greatly,
has been so stressed recently that she tends to take it out
on us, which means that i get the usual, up beat
conversation right before bedtime: "you need to be more
like your sister, gena never let the house get like this,
you need to stop being a slacker,.....yada yada yada..."
whatever. i've stopped listening for the most part. it's
become pretty old. but when she's in a good mood, she and i
get along really well. we're alot alike. which is kinda
scary sometimes, but that's ok. i love her anyway.
good night for tonight.

oh. the title. i was using my sister's screen name and my ex came
online. i was being sarcastic when i said 'beautiful'. we were
together for almost two years before i decided that i had outgrown
him. so that's what that was all about.

kai

**BEEP**




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