still single

sick of all the sh*t
2002-04-05 04:50:41 (UTC)

nothing exciting

okay so I really don't have much to write but since Jason
works from home now and is online 24/7, I figured now
might be my only chance. Wait a minute...there is nothing
new going on here. Still haven't felt much like leaving
the house since the abortion and I just don't feel like
myself yet. I hate this feeling.It's not as bad as when I
was pregnant but damn it sucks.Jason and I have been
geting along okay but I'm just not happy.I'm not sure why.
I think I need to get back on my anti-anxiety pills or my
antidepressants but I'm so fucking tired of being on
medication! I guess the shit was prescribed to me for a
reason.If Wells Fargo would hurry the fuck up and employ
me as a permanent worker I could go to the f'ing doctor.
That would cost money...something I don't have much of
right now.I'm so stressed I wish I could disappear. The
daily migraines aren't helping either. I really need to go
to the doctor.Something just doesn't seem right.That or
I'm going crazy.Who knows. Shit...if I didn't bitch and
complain what the hell would I do? That's why I put up
with so much shit from Jason because when I'm not happy
I'm not the funnest person to be around. Ok well gonna
watch some TV and hit the sack. I had a really nice
message from someone after the last "pray for me"