No Matter How Hard I Try...
2002-04-05 00:42:30 (UTC)

something had to happen!

I just can’t have a good day! Well, here is what Andy wrote

You know thats kinda messed up... I thought you were talkin
to Dustal an thats not the point because I was only kidding
about talking to Chris but yet you not only flipped once
you did it twice an thats kinda shitty for you I mean what
did I do to you why are you soo mad at me an you dont care
you could give a shit because if you did you wouldnt of
said all that FUCKIN SHIT ...
Andy Folk

My reply:

You know, I don't think I could have told you I was sorry
enough times. If that isn't good enough for you, if I'm not
good enough for you, then fine. But, you seemed mad about
me talking to him, and I miss-judged. I told you I was
sorry, and I am sorry. You're right, I shouldn't have
flipped out on you, you didn't deserve it. I had a bad day,
a really bad day, and when you seemed mad about me talking
to Chris (which I interpreted wrong)
it was all I could take. I shouldn't have flipped out at
you, and I had no excuse to. I'm sorry. It seems like you
don't want to forgive me and if you don't, hey that's cool.
You don't know what goes on inside my head, why would I
apologize if I didn't care? I do care. I'm sorry Andy, I'm
really sorry and you have every right to be mad at me. But,
I don't know how many more times you want me to apologize.
I do care, I really do care. I know I'm a walking fuck-up,
and if you don't want to talk to me because of who I am,
I'm not changing. I usually don't mess up as bad as I did,
and Andy, even if you don't believe me, I am sorry. I don't
know what I was thinking. If you don't want to forgive me,
let me know and I won't talk to you again. Whatever you
decide is perfectly fine with me. I'm sorry.