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It's all about me
2002-04-04 22:37:22 (UTC)

Boring Day

I've been in a crappy mood lately and I'm not sure why. My
poor doggies can't move =( It's so sad they just like lay
there all day and they used to be like jumping all over the
place if you just like looked at them. I got my stuff back
from Chris today. He gave it to Sam thank god..I dont think
I could've dealt with seeing him. I'm so glad he didnt like
show up at my house to give it to me. I tried to go back to
band today. I made it all the way in the room, but as soon
as I saw Ryan I turned around and walked right back out. I
don't understand this..I wanted to break up..why does it
hurt so much now? I guess I just miss our friendship...I
thought I could trust him and I told him so much and now
its like he was just acting like he cared to get me to
sleep with him..I really needed him for this whole Chris
thing too..If I could still talk to Sam it wouldnt be as
bad, but shes too busy helping Nathena with Jay..which I
understand..I guess I haven't exactly been making an effort
with her..I kinda ditched her for Jenn..eh enough
depressing shit..I finally presented my french project..I
think we did good. I've given up on Gabe..he's nice and all
but I'd hate to ruin anyone elses friendship by getting
involved with anyone that hangs out in that crowd..Maybe
its better that I be by myself for awhile anyways...We'll
find out how good I am at that...Probly not too good
considering I didnt even make it that 2 months to win the
bet..Im surprised Ryan didnt try to make me pay after we
got in a fight. Well this is getting too long and I'm going
to go talk to Jeff now..maybe he can make me feel better.
-TNG




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