angryanymore

angryanymore
2002-04-04 04:07:36 (UTC)

desperately wanting

yeah... here i sit at 10:07... listening to better than
ezra.... wishing i were somewhere else... maybe i just want
a cigarette and a good nights sleep... you guys have no
idea how disgustingly good that sounds... cigarettes and
sleep.

tonight was not good... my brother picked the lock in my
room... and all kinds of stuff went up in smoke. ... i
don't want to go into detail... i just don't.

the other night kolby and i got into it. i don't recall why
exactly... but it figures. for the last time... it's a
fucking lost cause... we are the two most incompatable
people in this world, obviously... so why in the hell was i
even drawn to him? ... some questions are meant be
answered. friendship is just another version of hope with
him... and when hope is concerened... evil is involved. ... the
question is... why do i always miss him? ... ... it's like.. even
though there's no connection there... by me to him... there's one
from him to me. ... ... i've come a long way though. ... i was the
neurotic crazy one who couldn't let go for so long. ... i'd hate me
too. .. i think.

act's this weekend.

prom the weekend after that.

time to slip into some pajamas, guys.

later.

neeley.