thestreetspirit

Pandora's Aquarium
2002-04-03 23:39:52 (UTC)

... my feable attempts at other topics fail miserably

Yeah, as much as I try to talk about something else in
here, some how the thought of my boyfriend always creeps
it's way back into my head!
I miss him dearly... I've gone the entire day without
talking to him, not even in the morning. Yeah, I got a
little message from him during the day. Yeah, it was very
sweet that he is so considerate that he would e-mail me
because he would be late going home. It's all sweet and
dandy, but what I really want is for him to hug me, just
squeeze till I explode...This room of mine reminds me of
his touches, his hugs... argh... so frustrating. It's not
bad enough that we can't physically see each other for
another 2 weeks, but I can't even read what he's thinking
about. I'm content (as much as possible, given the
circumstances) just sitting in front of my computer reading
what's on his mind, reading what he has to say about his
day... I can't even fucking do that!!!! These long days
apart are not fair... if someone is testing my resilience,
I'm done, I don't want to do this damn test anymore, I'm
not strong against pain like this, just give me back my
boyfriend!!! I just want him here!

Baby, if you read this, don't think that I am mad at you,
I'm mad at the situation and the curcumstances. I know you
have so much to do, so do I. I just miss you a whole hell
of a lot!




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