quiknsilver

my life
2002-04-03 05:19:44 (UTC)

love is hurtful

The first day of spring i met him the first nite. His
smile was unreal, a true beauty like the sun shining on a
beautiful day in summer. We walked through the beach and we
layed on the sand. It was an incredible feeling laying next
to him. I told him not to be in lust with me. I been hurt
so many times before feeling untrue feelings for someone so
unreal.He told me he would never do that since he had been
through it as many time as i was. We walked on the beach
and went up to the lifeguards tower. There he made feel
comfortable in myself. He made believe that i was someone
worth while. That night we got left behing abandoned in the
middle of no where. I stood by his side and did everything
possible to get us safe to our homes. He had rings on his
fingers, they meant so much to him. I told him i would
forgive him if he gave me one of them. I took the other
accidently. I had two with me which i have with me now all
the time. That friday, he said things had to be better in
his life. He left me behind so he could then come back and
be independent in life.He said as soon as he settles down
he would call me. I told him what did he want for us, he
said he liked me and was interested in only me. I have not
heard from him since then and it is now Tuesday. I felt
like i needed to talk to him and wanted know how things
were so i tried a different approached. I called his home
and they told me he has not been seen since the night
before. I thought they must be joking right but i could not
stop there. I called again tonight and they told me he was
not availabe at the moment. Now, i wonder if he never left
to become a better man but he lied to me. He made me
believe that i was important and so now it hurts not
knowing whether he is here or not. I am completely now
gonna do anything to find him. i want to know why he would
lie about something so simple. i want to know if he truely
cares or is just another childish game. May the lord give
me hope and strenght so i can find my answers in this world.




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