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Afipunkgodess (7:33:40 PM): soryr
Afipunkgodess (7:33:41 PM): i lost it
Afipunkgodess (7:33:47 PM): some dumbass did something to
my aim
Afipunkgodess (7:33:50 PM): hes a hacker
Afipunkgodess (7:33:51 PM): retard
Afipunkgodess (7:33:54 PM): sorry
Afipunkgodess wants to directly connect (7:33:59 PM).
whiteshadowfox is now directly connected (7:34:21 PM).
whiteshadowfox (7:35:02 PM): its okay
whiteshadowfox (7:35:05 PM): i just don't know wha t
whiteshadowfox (7:35:07 PM): to do
whiteshadowfox (7:35:10 PM): draco752 (7:04:47 PM): hey
draco752 (7:04:48 PM): *hug*
whiteshadowfox (7:04:52 PM): *hug* hey
draco752 (7:05:01 PM): *still hugging...in a kinda sad way*
whiteshadowfox (7:05:13 PM): aww......whats wrong??
draco752 (7:05:43 PM): chris is online
whiteshadowfox (7:05:52 PM): is he talking to you??
draco752 (7:06:26 PM): no
whiteshadowfox (7:07:48 PM): hmm...
draco752 (7:08:36 PM): i just miss him
draco752 (7:08:41 PM): and my other friends
draco752 (7:08:46 PM): im such a screw up
whiteshadowfox (7:09:33 PM): no your not!!! if you made a
mistake or something and he didn't forgive you for it then
its not your fault
whiteshadowfox (7:09:44 PM): if he expects you to be
perfect then its no point havin him for a friend anyways
draco752 (7:10:48 PM): yeah
draco752 (7:10:58 PM): my mind comprehends that perfectly
draco752 (7:11:01 PM): but my heart doesnt
whiteshadowfox (7:11:11 PM): *hug* then follow your heart
and not your head
draco752 (7:11:21 PM): it still longs for the people that
I've hurt.......
whiteshadowfox (7:13:18 PM): then listen and try to fix
things up
whiteshadowfox (7:13:30 PM): but at some point your gonna
have to listen to your head
draco752 (7:13:43 PM): i know.......
whiteshadowfox (7:14:54 PM): *long hug* i'm sorry
draco752 (7:15:16 PM): its ok
draco752 (7:15:27 PM): its not your fault or ANYTHING to
do with you
whiteshadowfox (7:16:39 PM): I know but I don't like it
that your all sad and that you miss your friends......I
wish I could switch places with you so you'd be all happy
draco752 (7:17:28 PM): heh
draco752 (7:17:31 PM): no you dont
draco752 (7:17:48 PM): i dont think you would be able to
stand being me
draco752 (7:17:53 PM): its ALOT to handle
whiteshadowfox (7:18:01 PM): not being you......but being
in the situation you are in heh
draco752 (7:19:40 PM): lo
draco752 (7:19:41 PM): lol
draco752 (7:19:50 PM): as if that was the ONLY situation i
was in
whiteshadowfox (7:20:39 PM): lol *hug* okay okay.....i get
your point just that situation lol
draco752 (7:21:06 PM): lol
draco752 (7:21:15 PM): you could handle this situations
draco752 (7:21:18 PM): you are strong
draco752 (7:21:26 PM): but i dont think you're that
strong.......
whiteshadowfox (7:21:43 PM): what??
draco752 (7:23:10 PM): nm
draco752 (7:23:11 PM): lol
whiteshadowfox (7:23:33 PM): lol i get the first part but
not the "but I don't think you're that strong" heh but o
well
draco752 (7:24:04 PM): *hug*
whiteshadowfox (7:24:21 PM): *hug*
whiteshadowfox (7:25:41 PM): but I just want to make sure
you understand your not a horrible person
whiteshadowfox (7:25:53 PM): or a screw up
draco752 (7:26:09 PM): eh
draco752 (7:26:12 PM): i think i'm tired
whiteshadowfox (7:26:22 PM): well don't got to sleep yet
whiteshadowfox (7:27:45 PM): aha!! see i didn't say to to
to sleep
whiteshadowfox (7:28:55 PM): what else is goig no?
draco752 (7:28:56 PM): yes........
draco752 (7:29:53 PM): *hug*

whiteshadowfox (7:30:11 PM): cause your all
quiet.....unless your just tired of talking then its all
good.......you just seem quiet or are you just trying to
sort all your thoughts out??
draco752 (7:32:42 PM): hey well i'm gonna go ahead and
go.....
draco752 (7:32:47 PM): i dont feel
draco752 (7:32:50 PM): i think i'm numb
draco752 (7:33:03 PM): not a good numb or a bad numb
draco752 (7:33:11 PM): just like as if i was asleep
whiteshadowfox (7:33:31 PM): *long hug and kiss* well i
hope things work out and ya know you an always come to me
draco752 signed off at 7:33:32 PM.
Afipunkgodess (7:36:21 PM): poor aldo
whiteshadowfox (7:36:37 PM): yeah I know
whiteshadowfox (7:36:45 PM): and I don't know wether I
should call him
whiteshadowfox (7:36:51 PM): or stay online and see if he
comes back
Afipunkgodess (7:36:52 PM): umm
Afipunkgodess (7:36:55 PM): or leave him alone
Afipunkgodess (7:36:56 PM): to think
Afipunkgodess (7:36:57 PM): ?
whiteshadowfox (7:37:39 PM): exactly
whiteshadowfox (7:37:47 PM): will he come to me when he
wants to talk
whiteshadowfox (7:37:49 PM): or what??
Afipunkgodess (7:39:13 PM): ummm
Afipunkgodess (7:39:16 PM): im not sure
whiteshadowfox (7:39:19 PM): cause I won't be able to talk
to him tomorrow
Afipunkgodess (7:39:23 PM): i still dont know him well
noough
whiteshadowfox (7:39:25 PM): for maybe at the most five
minutes
whiteshadowfox (7:39:34 PM): yeah I sorta know him
Afipunkgodess (7:39:35 PM): then call him and say ur wrried
whiteshadowfox (7:40:19 PM): yeah but i have to finish my
spanish project first
Afipunkgodess (7:40:46 PM): okay
whiteshadowfox (7:40:59 PM): hmm
whiteshadowfox (7:41:01 PM): i'll ponder it
Afipunkgodess (7:41:43 PM): yeah
Afipunkgodess (7:41:46 PM): pondering is good
whiteshadowfox (7:42:03 PM): lol it is
Afipunkgodess (7:42:24 PM): lalala
Afipunkgodess (7:42:27 PM): too much can be bad
whiteshadowfox (7:42:31 PM): yeah
whiteshadowfox (7:42:35 PM): but not enough is bad too
Afipunkgodess (7:43:13 PM): mhmm
Afipunkgodess (7:43:16 PM): id rather have too much
whiteshadowfox (7:43:37 PM): yeah me too
whiteshadowfox (7:43:42 PM): to much is better than not
enough
Afipunkgodess (7:44:05 PM): mhmm
Afipunkgodess (7:44:47 PM): so is kp better?
whiteshadowfox (7:46:43 PM): *shrugs* haven't talked to her
Afipunkgodess (7:47:33 PM): hmmm
Afipunkgodess (7:47:35 PM): i wish i knew her
Afipunkgodess (7:47:37 PM): but i cant know her
Afipunkgodess (7:47:40 PM): because she wont let me
Afipunkgodess (7:47:42 PM): and i dont want to
Afipunkgodess (7:47:43 PM): nvm
whiteshadowfox (7:47:51 PM): lol
whiteshadowfox (7:48:02 PM): i don't know wether I'm
happy or sad that she let me in
whiteshadowfox (7:48:05 PM): happy i think
whiteshadowfox (7:48:26 PM): i'd always rather be in
someones life and be miserable because of things i know
and out of it and angry with them
Afipunkgodess (7:49:12 PM): sigh
Afipunkgodess (7:49:15 PM): dont be miserable
whiteshadowfox (7:49:27 PM): oh i'm not
whiteshadowfox (7:49:32 PM): i tried to go from one thing
to the other
whiteshadowfox (7:49:37 PM): i'm just really worried bout
her
Afipunkgodess (7:49:48 PM): i know
Afipunkgodess (7:49:55 PM): shell have to figure it out
herself nikki
Afipunkgodess (7:49:56 PM): she will
whiteshadowfox (7:50:37 PM): yeah I know
whiteshadowfox (7:50:50 PM): but if I think i sorta know
kp shes just gonna give up till some guy comes along
whiteshadowfox (7:50:52 PM): and thats so stupid
whiteshadowfox (7:51:06 PM): because while shes just doing
nothing the right guy is gonna come along and shes gonna
miss him
Afipunkgodess (7:51:52 PM): yeah
Afipunkgodess (7:51:53 PM): yeah
whiteshadowfox (7:54:31 PM): *sigh* you wanna know the
worst thing about this whole thing with kp and aldo??
Afipunkgodess (7:55:25 PM): what?
whiteshadowfox (7:55:55 PM): I'm in a way enjoying it
all........they need help so I need to find some way to
help them and Il ike helping them
Afipunkgodess (7:56:20 PM): mhmm
Afipunkgodess (7:56:23 PM): that good feeling
Afipunkgodess (7:57:50 PM): i feel bad
Afipunkgodess (7:57:55 PM): im not helping anyone
Afipunkgodess (7:57:58 PM): im so self centered
whiteshadowfox (7:58:07 PM): no your not!!!
whiteshadowfox (7:58:15 PM): i'm the self centred one
whiteshadowfox (7:58:19 PM): i take joy in other ppls pain
Afipunkgodess (7:59:18 PM): n ooooo
Afipunkgodess (7:59:19 PM): you dont
Afipunkgodess (7:59:20 PM): never
Afipunkgodess (7:59:23 PM): ive never seen u do tha
Afipunkgodess (7:59:24 PM): t
whiteshadowfox (7:59:37 PM): i am right no
whiteshadowfox (7:59:38 PM): w
whiteshadowfox (7:59:52 PM): i'm like yay.....now they
have problems so i get to help them now which may show me
how to be wise
Afipunkgodess (8:00:07 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (8:00:09 PM): but you help
Afipunkgodess (8:00:16 PM): and thats what counts
whiteshadowfox (8:02:02 PM): no it doesn't
whiteshadowfox (8:02:10 PM): if they didn't have problems
then they wouldb't need help
whiteshadowfox (8:02:15 PM): wich would make them hapier
in the long run
Afipunkgodess (8:02:44 PM): no
Afipunkgodess (8:02:45 PM): not really
Afipunkgodess (8:02:46 PM): probs
Afipunkgodess (8:02:50 PM): build character
whiteshadowfox (8:04:05 PM): true but o well lol
Afipunkgodess (8:05:07 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (8:05:08 PM): o well
Afipunkgodess (8:05:09 PM): o well
Afipunkgodess (8:05:10 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (8:08:28 PM):

Afipunkgodess (8:08:33 PM): is this too weird of an email?

whiteshadowfox (8:10:45 PM): lol ahahha thats good
whiteshadowfox (8:10:50 PM): its a good email
Afipunkgodess (8:10:51 PM): lol
whiteshadowfox (8:11:05 PM): and yay *hug* ya mentioned me
hmmmmmm......bad bad me gotten more touchy touchy lately
whiteshadowfox (8:11:06 PM): o well
Afipunkgodess (8:11:26 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (8:11:33 PM): yes, feelings are a sign of
weakness!
whiteshadowfox (8:11:38 PM): lol tehy are
Afipunkgodess (8:11:40 PM): my emails not too shallow
right?
whiteshadowfox (8:11:50 PM): no way
whiteshadowfox (8:11:52 PM): or i don't hink so
Afipunkgodess (8:11:58 PM): i hope not
Afipunkgodess (8:12:04 PM): because lol

Afipunkgodess (8:12:09 PM): lol
whiteshadowfox (8:13:15 PM): lol thats good!!
Afipunkgodess (8:13:47 PM): agh
Afipunkgodess (8:13:52 PM): i dont know if im good nuff

Afipunkgodess (8:13:53 PM): lol
whiteshadowfox (8:13:58 PM): lol yes you are!!
whiteshadowfox (8:15:06 PM): jen your good enough
Afipunkgodess (8:16:26 PM): lol noooowhiteshadowfox (8:17:56 PM):
its good
Afipunkgodess (8:18:04 PM): u sure
Afipunkgodess (8:18:09 PM): or should i delete the 2nd part
whiteshadowfox (8:19:13 PM): nope nope
whiteshadowfox (8:19:14 PM): keep it
Afipunkgodess (8:19:19 PM): k
Afipunkgodess (8:20:40 PM): sent it
Afipunkgodess (8:20:45 PM): haha Afipunkgodess (8:21:00 PM): so wat
do u wanna talk about
whiteshadowfox (8:21:13 PM): *shrugs* typing ot kp
whiteshadowfox (8:21:17 PM): and writing in my journal
whiteshadowfox (8:21:20 PM): lol and then i'm gonna get off
whiteshadowfox (8:21:23 PM): so see my brain is full
whiteshadowfox (8:21:25 PM): you get to pick
Afipunkgodess (8:22:32 PM): lol
Afipunkgodess (8:22:34 PM): ummm
Afipunkgodess (8:22:36 PM): life
Afipunkgodess (8:22:39 PM): why life?
whiteshadowfox (8:23:48 PM): *laughs* cause life is life
and without life what would we be??
Afipunkgodess (8:23:57 PM): mmmm
Afipunkgodess (8:24:01 PM): but why this life
Afipunkgodess (8:24:02 PM): why here
Afipunkgodess (8:24:03 PM): why now
Afipunkgodess (8:24:07 PM): and does it end
Afipunkgodess (8:24:08 PM): when
whiteshadowfox (8:24:23 PM): we here because we have soem
part to play in the shape of the world
whiteshadowfox (8:24:25 PM): and i dunno when it ends
Afipunkgodess (8:24:58 PM): why this world
Afipunkgodess (8:25:04 PM): what does it matter
Afipunkgodess (8:25:07 PM): when we"die"
whiteshadowfox (8:25:23 PM): lhmm i aint sure
whiteshadowfox (8:25:26 PM): what do u think??
Afipunkgodess (8:25:27 PM): honestly, can you imagine
nonexistence?
Afipunkgodess (8:25:34 PM): i dontg know at all
Afipunkgodess (8:25:35 PM): *don
whiteshadowfox (8:25:35 PM): i czan't
Afipunkgodess (8:25:36 PM): t
Afipunkgodess (8:25:43 PM): nor can i
Afipunkgodess (8:25:52 PM): and im not supposed to be able
to imagine god
Afipunkgodess (8:25:58 PM): yet he is existence
Afipunkgodess (8:25:59 PM): he is now
Afipunkgodess (8:26:07 PM): or that is what ive heard
whiteshadowfox (8:26:16 PM): i can't imagine a lot of
things bout god
Afipunkgodess (8:26:26 PM): yes you can
whiteshadowfox (8:26:27 PM): like why does he give us so
many chances to redeem ourselves??
Afipunkgodess (8:26:28 PM): you cant be for sure
Afipunkgodess (8:26:31 PM): but you can imagin
Afipunkgodess (8:26:31 PM): e
Afipunkgodess (8:26:36 PM): you cant imagine WHY
Afipunkgodess (8:26:39 PM): but what chances?
Afipunkgodess (8:26:40 PM): whn
Afipunkgodess (8:26:46 PM): i dont see any chances
Afipunkgodess (8:26:48 PM): what if theyre there
Afipunkgodess (8:26:51 PM): what if no one put them there
Afipunkgodess (8:27:06 PM): were supposed to have free
will but what if our subconcious chooses before us
whiteshadowfox (8:27:18 PM): oh i got a thing on that
Afipunkgodess (8:27:21 PM): what if through our upbringing
weve already been chosen, predisposed for somehting
whiteshadowfox (8:27:21 PM): what if we don't have free
will
whiteshadowfox (8:27:23 PM): think of it
Afipunkgodess (8:27:26 PM): i know
whiteshadowfox (8:27:28 PM): nothing we do we can be
punished for
Afipunkgodess (8:27:34 PM): or praised
whiteshadowfox (8:27:36 PM): that would be sorta freaky
Afipunkgodess (8:29:20 PM): very
Afipunkgodess (8:29:20 PM): very
Afipunkgodess (8:29:21 PM): so
Afipunkgodess (8:29:23 PM): is it us
Afipunkgodess (8:29:24 PM): genes
Afipunkgodess (8:29:28 PM): our envoirnement?
Afipunkgodess (8:29:32 PM): HOW ARE WE US?
Afipunkgodess (8:29:36 PM): im mean
Afipunkgodess (8:29:40 PM): what made you you nikki?
Afipunkgodess (8:29:41 PM): tell me
Afipunkgodess (8:29:46 PM): outside stimulants
Afipunkgodess (8:29:49 PM): did you choose?
Afipunkgodess (8:29:53 PM): or did you just BECOME:?
whiteshadowfox (8:30:17 PM): both
whiteshadowfox (8:30:25 PM): stuff and people influenced me
whiteshadowfox (8:30:30 PM): but I chose what to accept
Afipunkgodess (8:30:34 PM): but who are you
Afipunkgodess (8:30:43 PM): where have your opinions come
from, your biases?
Afipunkgodess (8:30:50 PM): the outside, right
whiteshadowfox (8:30:55 PM): teachers, parents, adults,
friends
Afipunkgodess (8:31:00 PM): i mean without influences
everyone would be the same right?
whiteshadowfox (8:31:24 PM): umm no
Afipunkgodess (8:31:27 PM): and, if, by chance, they
wouldnt, then this whole heaven and hell thing isnt fair!
Afipunkgodess (8:31:31 PM): how do you know"
Afipunkgodess (8:31:32 PM): ?
Afipunkgodess (8:31:36 PM): youve already had influence
Afipunkgodess (8:31:36 PM): d
Afipunkgodess (8:31:38 PM): *s
Afipunkgodess (8:31:53 PM): and, if by chance, they would,
then its still not fair!
whiteshadowfox (8:31:57 PM): because I just know......heh
cause its what the inside of me i saying
Afipunkgodess (8:31:59 PM): were screwed either way, see
Afipunkgodess (8:32:01 PM): but
Afipunkgodess (8:32:04 PM): what if the inside of you
Afipunkgodess (8:32:08 PM): is made from influences
Afipunkgodess (8:32:26 PM): ?
Afipunkgodess (8:32:28 PM): could it be
Afipunkgodess (8:32:35 PM): it seems such an easy
possibility
Afipunkgodess (8:32:39 PM): what am i missing here, nikki?
Afipunkgodess (8:32:40 PM): what dont i see
Afipunkgodess (8:32:46 PM): what voice am i not hearing
whiteshadowfox (8:33:13 PM): i think what your missing jen
whiteshadowfox (8:33:18 PM): is that your complicating it
whiteshadowfox (8:33:37 PM): trying to find a deeper
meaning a bigger plan bigger meaning whatever.....yet its
so simple that we can't comprehend it
Afipunkgodess (8:33:53 PM): im soirry
whiteshadowfox (8:34:05 PM): what you sorry for?
whiteshadowfox (8:34:44 PM): you didn't do noth ing
Afipunkgodess (8:35:19 PM): but i complicate things
Afipunkgodess (8:35:21 PM): but
Afipunkgodess (8:35:24 PM): maybe thats it
Afipunkgodess (8:35:26 PM): thanks