Weezaholic Geek

the time of your life
2002-04-03 01:16:08 (UTC)

dream deferred

Mood: Not good
Music: Dashboard Confessional "Again I go Unoticed"

Well, last night was pretty exciting. Mike Hawkins gave me
his screename on Jennet and we talked for about an hour.
This made me really happy, considering. We talked about all
sorts of stuff...rock n roll, school, jazz band,
graduating. The normal stuff. It was actually a pretty good
conversation. But now, I feel stupid. Cause I fell hard
with just that conversation because of previous liking to
his looks. Now that I know he's cool on the inside too, it
makes me like him. And thats dumb. Because he is gorgeous.
And a senior. I'm so stupid. He said hey and smiled at me
today. And he said goodbye when I left jazz band. I'm so
stupid. Why am I doing this to myself. Man.

And why can't I feel good about myself except when stuff
like that happens? I need to feel good about myself none
the less. And I shouldn't have made that bet with David. 2
dollars to hug Mike by Thursday. I have no doubt that I
could do it..its just a matter of if I will. Or if its
worth getting my hopes up for. I'm so stupid! Make me not
stupid. Man.




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