RandomAtaxia

Scribblings and Such
2002-04-02 05:28:00 (UTC)

Lost

Sometimes I feel like Im lost. Its like the mists close in
and I can't find my way home. Perhaps it comes from not
having a home, I don't know.
A lot of times I feel like Im looking for something. The
problem is I dont know what it is. I should be happy but Im
not. I should be useful but alot of times I feel worthless.
I don't know exactly what causes it and I don't know how to
change.

Sometimes I feel like if only I could sparkle in the sun
for a minute everything would be okay. Instead it seems
like the sun only causes more pain. Today I climbed out a
window. Im not sure why. I think that perhaps I wanted to
fly for a bit. Its silly because people can't fly.

If only I could smile, or cry, or laugh like a maniac.
Instead I smirk, and hide. I cant be what everyone seems to
want, and I don't know what I want. Life seems to take
turns that it shouldn't and last longer than I want it to.





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